Hope springs eternal
It's been like a week since my last garbled message from Jin on the quills..I'm really getting worried. He should have contacted me again by now....or something. He said no matter what he would always find me...but I just will have to keep looking.
it's so hard to sleep.
[Tezuka-san and Oshitari-san]
He said something that I can only understand as he is someplace dark with bars and they broke his hands. I think. I don't want to think about that...I am hoping I am wrong. I tried to sniff around some more near the markets and stuff...but no one, not even my parents have even seen hide nor hair f him. I am running out of ideas. I can't search noble homes, most don't even like that I am roaming about, even with the collar...
Kinda starting to think this is hopeless and I will never see him again.
I think I might go take a walk in the gardens and see if I can be useful. My face hurts from trying to smile so much. It's usually about empty out there by now...
[Private]
Tezuka-san has been recovering and learning a bit about my past from me...I am even sort of getting curious now to find out what he can learn. He has the resources and the time- but I feel really guilty about him using so much time on helping me find Jin and learn about my past. I can't really do anything nearly as wonderful for him, so I have settled for playing music for him and keeping him company as much as I can.
And not growling at Oshitari-san when he visits. Well- trying not to.
I hate feeling this cold and miserable all of the time. I actually hurt when he is not around me. I was weak and slipped up once. Shsihido-san....I- it was nice being able to sleep a little, and he was so warm. He's lost and lonely like me. I still can't believe we had sex though. But I thought Jin was dead....and then he said what he said....and it just happened. I kind of want it to happen again, but I love Jin.
I really am just a stupid stupid dog.
(ooc: The scratch is just that, he is too tired and distracted to notice he didn't scratch it out well)