an update of the birthday kind

Aug 15, 2009 12:35

24 yrs more down the road

and what the next 24 may bring who knows.

i spent most of my birthday doing things out of whim and with no real planning

such as the desire to watch the meteor shower outside of city lights and polluted sky
with youth in tow, no real direction but with a map we headed away.

the night sky why strange only because i wasnt used to looking up anymore but found it quite comfortable. the sky started shooting and we relaxed till life took over once more.
and we headed back for breakfast. a breakfast i was maybe too tired to eat but more than happy
to indulge my sweet tooth with. I couldnt get myself to sleep and passed the night watching being john malkovich till somewhere after 9am. i fell to sleep to be woken by a birthday gift of fresh flowers from my mother but i couldnt get myself to wake up. spend most of the after noon doing nothing until an afternoon on the beach materialized. Again we traveled through tasks until we reached a the sand warm destination. We set up a spot where i could do some reading and dwell 20 more pages unto a description of the gospel according to jesus christ before heading back. With an appetite dissipated after each cigarette. i welcomed my new gift only to feel knocked down by it.

i did keep having this long thought i had to materialize.

ive felt as though until now, ive been a child going through my life as i did a childhood


and now realizing a bit that this idea maybe not as great as i thought.


im going to try and enjoy my next few years. but also i hope to take them a little more seriously and laugh at what may not make so much sense. I also hope katie knows that im growing just as she is. And just how many things dont make sense to her many dont make sense to me. And i act with out knowing why, and i enjoy it at times. but maybe i should be more thoughtful and protectful as to how i tread now.
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