Don't even go there being upset about not reading this on time, plz! It was a good opportunity to learn how to deal with those things by myself, since I tend to rely on others in moments of difficulty and... well, it's been a long time since I wasn't that stressed, so... Probably I blew things out of proportion again... Anyway, nothing to apologize for... I was actually glad you found this old thing now and commented on it... Thanx to you I realized how far I've gone since those dark times I went through back in February...
Your position sounds like way worse than mine, tho... I cannot imagine having to provide for the whole family. I got to understand how hard my dad is working for our sake and that only makes me want to graduate and get a fucking real job and just pay him back for everything he's done (which I know I'll just never manage to, but still...)... But bro and sis made me see how much I've been helping just by prodiving for them. Since I started working, we had to ask him for money just about thrice, bc the dinning hall stopped working and have I mentioned how expensive food is in here? o.O Like, you wouldn't believe how freaking expensive food is in Venezuela...
But anyway, I'm taking all this experience as a fucking surviving intensive course I'm taking before leaving this country and going to some place where I can get my shit together...
Things got a lot worse in my country... Things are constantly going worse in my country, but this whole experience helped us a lot. Me and my siblings got a whole awesome system for surviving and we are helping each other a lot. Also, bro will be moving with us so things will get even better, hopefully. Mom and dad visited us in our final days of classes and they didn't have to pay for anything once they got with us because I managed to save some money and we had the house for ourselves so they didn't stay in a hotel and... it was awesome! They spent my birthday with me and we had a lot of fun...
Nah, I don't think you blew things out of proportion, really. Just because some people have it worse than you it doesn't mean you aren't having a hard time yourself. And I'm glad my late comment helped you realize that :>
I only had to provide for my dad and I, because my mom and dad aren't together (I live with my dad). And my dad chipped in with some money from time to time when he landed a temporary job. But, mostly, his money went to rent and some bills, the rest was on me. You know, these past three years were the worst in my whole life, but, just like you said, I learnt to value everything a little more.
Yeah, I read about the dining hall. My question is: when it IS running, do you not pay for the food? Is it included in your school fees?
It makes me sad to learn about what's happening in you country :c My country isn't much better off, really, but we are trying to hold up, I guess.
Yay for your parents spending you birthday with you guys! I'm really happy you got to be together and that you were able to save some money for that occasion :D/
Anyway, it warms my heart to know things got at least a little bit better. One step at a time, right?
Please try to update me or your LJ so I know what's been going on with your life :P I don't care if you think you're being a nuisance or sth to your LJ friends, you fucking update us (ง ͠° ͟ل͜ ͡°)ง
Yes, I guess you're right there. It's just I'm used to thinking I'm always overreacting and blowing things out of proportion. My bro used to call me "poor, rich girl", just because he said I had no real reasons to be sad/upset/anything-less-than-happy and that kinda stuck with me until now... But yes, your comment sure made me realized where I'm now and how far I've gone...
Wow..! That still sounds tough! I really hope you're in a better place rn, girl... Because 3 years of that... damned! I've been suffering for the past year or so and a lot of those days I've spent crying or going to bed with an empty stomach and stuff like that... And I don't want any of that for more time... ._.
And well, in this month of vacation I received some extra money for my "job" as teacher assistant and my folks just told me we managed to eat some weels ago just because of me... and that just made me angry. Because I would like to have more money to give it to them and provide real food and... idk. It's so frustrating...!!
Surprisingly enough, we do not pay any school fees. We only had to pay for the entrance exam and some money in the inscription (back in 2012, when we both started) and that was it... That's part of the problem. Education here is for free and so universities depend on money from the government. Unis are against the government = not so much money = less/bad services...
But yeah, latin contries are going through deep sh*t for a long time rn, but Venezuela is quite at the bottom in terms of a lot of things, so... I know, it's not a contest to see what's the most f*cked-up contry, I know, but well... Hopefully we're all gathering good karma for the near future and we'll se better days...!!
I always say I'll try to update my LJ more often and fail miserably, but since I'm kinda compromised with my weekly dance covers, I think I'll manage to do so from now on... And you too, ne~ Keep me updated with your life, please! How are you? Haw've you been? *hugs*
Um, yeah, I get what you're saying. But, whereas I do think that one should always bear in mind that one has certain privileges someone else may not have, I also think minimizing and invalidating other's feelings just because someone else's got it worse is a little assholish. There's always someone else having a rougher time than you, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't be able to feel what you do.
Yeah, we are better now. Dad landed a steady job and it's going well for now. Whenever it got to hard for me to handle I just tried to think of the future, I guess. I've to admit I had my dark moments and everything and it was hard to control my self-injuring tendencies during those times (though sometimes I couldn't), but, yeah, what kept me going was the hope for a brighter future. Maybe if you started thinking about future goals and focused on them then thing wouldn't be as harder, or at least you'd have some kind of solace.
Wow! Cool. If you leave everything aside, at least you don't have to pay for higher education. That's a big pro if I ever saw one.
Of course it's not a contest. Latin American countries should unite and seek mutual benefits. It's a shame Argentina's current president is such an asshole and is not interested in Latin American relations you guys are having such a hard time while other Latin American leaders just turn the blind eye on your country's current situation :c
There's nothing much to be updated on, really. My life is as boring as ever, but I'll try. You try hard too. I saw your dance covers and they were awesome :D/
Your position sounds like way worse than mine, tho... I cannot imagine having to provide for the whole family. I got to understand how hard my dad is working for our sake and that only makes me want to graduate and get a fucking real job and just pay him back for everything he's done (which I know I'll just never manage to, but still...)... But bro and sis made me see how much I've been helping just by prodiving for them. Since I started working, we had to ask him for money just about thrice, bc the dinning hall stopped working and have I mentioned how expensive food is in here? o.O Like, you wouldn't believe how freaking expensive food is in Venezuela...
But anyway, I'm taking all this experience as a fucking surviving intensive course I'm taking before leaving this country and going to some place where I can get my shit together...
Things got a lot worse in my country... Things are constantly going worse in my country, but this whole experience helped us a lot. Me and my siblings got a whole awesome system for surviving and we are helping each other a lot. Also, bro will be moving with us so things will get even better, hopefully. Mom and dad visited us in our final days of classes and they didn't have to pay for anything once they got with us because I managed to save some money and we had the house for ourselves so they didn't stay in a hotel and... it was awesome! They spent my birthday with me and we had a lot of fun...
So yeah, all in all, things got better, hon!
Yo también te quiero mucho, Guga!!! <3
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I only had to provide for my dad and I, because my mom and dad aren't together (I live with my dad). And my dad chipped in with some money from time to time when he landed a temporary job. But, mostly, his money went to rent and some bills, the rest was on me.
You know, these past three years were the worst in my whole life, but, just like you said, I learnt to value everything a little more.
Yeah, I read about the dining hall. My question is: when it IS running, do you not pay for the food? Is it included in your school fees?
It makes me sad to learn about what's happening in you country :c My country isn't much better off, really, but we are trying to hold up, I guess.
Yay for your parents spending you birthday with you guys! I'm really happy you got to be together and that you were able to save some money for that occasion :D/
Anyway, it warms my heart to know things got at least a little bit better. One step at a time, right?
Please try to update me or your LJ so I know what's been going on with your life :P I don't care if you think you're being a nuisance or sth to your LJ friends, you fucking update us (ง ͠° ͟ل͜ ͡°)ง
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Wow..! That still sounds tough! I really hope you're in a better place rn, girl... Because 3 years of that... damned! I've been suffering for the past year or so and a lot of those days I've spent crying or going to bed with an empty stomach and stuff like that... And I don't want any of that for more time... ._.
And well, in this month of vacation I received some extra money for my "job" as teacher assistant and my folks just told me we managed to eat some weels ago just because of me... and that just made me angry. Because I would like to have more money to give it to them and provide real food and... idk. It's so frustrating...!!
Surprisingly enough, we do not pay any school fees. We only had to pay for the entrance exam and some money in the inscription (back in 2012, when we both started) and that was it... That's part of the problem. Education here is for free and so universities depend on money from the government. Unis are against the government = not so much money = less/bad services...
But yeah, latin contries are going through deep sh*t for a long time rn, but Venezuela is quite at the bottom in terms of a lot of things, so... I know, it's not a contest to see what's the most f*cked-up contry, I know, but well... Hopefully we're all gathering good karma for the near future and we'll se better days...!!
I always say I'll try to update my LJ more often and fail miserably, but since I'm kinda compromised with my weekly dance covers, I think I'll manage to do so from now on... And you too, ne~ Keep me updated with your life, please! How are you? Haw've you been? *hugs*
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Yeah, we are better now. Dad landed a steady job and it's going well for now. Whenever it got to hard for me to handle I just tried to think of the future, I guess. I've to admit I had my dark moments and everything and it was hard to control my self-injuring tendencies during those times (though sometimes I couldn't), but, yeah, what kept me going was the hope for a brighter future. Maybe if you started thinking about future goals and focused on them then thing wouldn't be as harder, or at least you'd have some kind of solace.
Wow! Cool. If you leave everything aside, at least you don't have to pay for higher education. That's a big pro if I ever saw one.
Of course it's not a contest. Latin American countries should unite and seek mutual benefits. It's a shame Argentina's current president is such an asshole and is not interested in Latin American relations you guys are having such a hard time while other Latin American leaders just turn the blind eye on your country's current situation :c
There's nothing much to be updated on, really. My life is as boring as ever, but I'll try. You try hard too. I saw your dance covers and they were awesome :D/
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