Change is not always good......
So I haven't posted in like 50 trillion years, mostly because I got swept up in the mess that is my life. I have had friendships change drasticaly, I've moved from NY where i was born and raised to Florida which after 4 years is still a big adjustment. My music tastes has also broadend to now include K-pop. Something I thought would never happen in a million years. I'm still very biased to male groups with the exception of a few female groups, But in general it's brought me to the conclusion that if at all possible, I would like to take my next international trip to South Korea :)
All in all and in reference to my subject, change I have found IS NOT always a good thing like we are constantly meant to believe. The biggest change that I still cannot accept is in relation to my friendships. Out of the 3 best friends that I have had (2 for 11 years and the 3rd for about 15) I no longer speak to any of them. friend A (15 years) I believe has moved onto someone that she can relate to personally. Someone who more closely shares her interests then her and I ever did. Friend B is pretty much the same as friend A. But friend C is the kicker. She is the biggest loss I have ever experienced. Although in the past we have had to cut eachother off in order to save the friendship, we have always found out way back to eachother. But this time feels final. Like she would be too stubborn o reach out to me and tell me she misses me the same way I would for her. It saddens me to the point of depression. I'm trying to be patient and let it run it's course - this silence - but I'm not sure anymore.........
All in all and in reference to my subject, change I have found IS NOT always a good thing like we are constantly meant to believe. The biggest change that I still cannot accept is in relation to my friendships. Out of the 3 best friends that I have had (2 for 11 years and the 3rd for about 15) I no longer speak to any of them. friend A (15 years) I believe has moved onto someone that she can relate to personally. Someone who more closely shares her interests then her and I ever did. Friend B is pretty much the same as friend A. But friend C is the kicker. She is the biggest loss I have ever experienced. Although in the past we have had to cut eachother off in order to save the friendship, we have always found out way back to eachother. But this time feels final. Like she would be too stubborn o reach out to me and tell me she misses me the same way I would for her. It saddens me to the point of depression. I'm trying to be patient and let it run it's course - this silence - but I'm not sure anymore.........