Let me in your arms to feel
so hey hey everybody, decided to start posting in here again to get stress off my back
i have an elowel thingy, but i dont really like it, id rather use this one, i havent wrote in that one in forever either
i am in the school musical and its going great, very fun, im happy i have it cuz it gives me something to do and not be alone
lets see other than musical my life has been tiresome and disheartening, ive been staying home mostly, and when i do go out i dont have that much fun, there has even been times when i felt so bad that i had lied to my friends and said i was busy so i didnt go somewhere with them and whine, cuz i hate myself when im whiny, which i havent been lately
i dont like putting on a show for people all the time, im tired of pretending to feel ways i dont, at school i act so far away from what i feel, if i didnt start having a journal there i might have blown
i am brainstorming for ways that will get me out of my mood and i can think of like 3, and 2 of them are comepletely unreachable, and the other is plausible, but very unlikely
i dont tell people how i feel anymore because i find that i dont like talking about it to people as much as i thought i did, i do like talking to people, but not face to face when it involves how i feel
i do have a good way to get out of the way im feeling actually, and its a really good idea, but at the same time its the worst idea i have come up with, its the one most likely to work, and probally the least likely ill try because even if i try it there is a very very very longshot that it would work, although if it did work id prolly chipper up, and the idea makes me sound shallow i think, but its how i work through things, and its been proven to work
so yeah hey folks, im back on hurr, thats all i got
i have an elowel thingy, but i dont really like it, id rather use this one, i havent wrote in that one in forever either
i am in the school musical and its going great, very fun, im happy i have it cuz it gives me something to do and not be alone
lets see other than musical my life has been tiresome and disheartening, ive been staying home mostly, and when i do go out i dont have that much fun, there has even been times when i felt so bad that i had lied to my friends and said i was busy so i didnt go somewhere with them and whine, cuz i hate myself when im whiny, which i havent been lately
i dont like putting on a show for people all the time, im tired of pretending to feel ways i dont, at school i act so far away from what i feel, if i didnt start having a journal there i might have blown
i am brainstorming for ways that will get me out of my mood and i can think of like 3, and 2 of them are comepletely unreachable, and the other is plausible, but very unlikely
i dont tell people how i feel anymore because i find that i dont like talking about it to people as much as i thought i did, i do like talking to people, but not face to face when it involves how i feel
i do have a good way to get out of the way im feeling actually, and its a really good idea, but at the same time its the worst idea i have come up with, its the one most likely to work, and probally the least likely ill try because even if i try it there is a very very very longshot that it would work, although if it did work id prolly chipper up, and the idea makes me sound shallow i think, but its how i work through things, and its been proven to work
so yeah hey folks, im back on hurr, thats all i got