try and make sense of this i guess
it may just be wishful thinking and an ecstasy influenced commitment but i really don't want to abandon my russian studies. i've gotten a lot out of it over the years even though it's kicked my ass repeatedly. with that in mind i think i'm going to try sitting in on early level russian classes this semester for no grade or credit if only to keep it fresh in my mind. either way i feel really good right now and it is refreshing. if it wasn't expensive i would definitely try e more often, it's much easier to believe in than any other pills because i can actually feel something after taking it. regardless i feel like this semester will be a massive improvement and i feel like i'm really going to get shit done. i'm glad i got to see everyone in maryland before i came back, i treasure the time i have with you all. didn't get to see maddie because she was pretty much dead but it's whatever. my computer is dead and my laptop works only every so often so i don't expect to post much. so right now in those infamous hours waiting for a party to start i sit and rock out to music while fucking around online. i should be going out soon so i'll end this rambling mess right here and NEVER LOOK BACK. i don't really have anything funny to say except that i came home to a dude sleeping in my bed who apparently had been staying at our place for a month. there was broken glass and bits of paper strewn across my room, he sure was a swell house guest! i also suspect he was the one to break my computer. it's all good though cause he's an alright guy all in all. still, i'm a little pissed. oh yeah, i was ending this post. so i will go ahea