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well...where to start. I need to get this shit outta my system, so sorry in adavnce...for those who don't know, Dad died at 8pm on Friday night. he wasn't in pain, and when he went, he looked so peaceful. it hasn't totally sunk in yet but it's starting to. it's just so weird. and yet...there's a kind of relief there too, because towards the end he was struggling to breathe. and I didn't want him to carry on having to live life like that. I know it sounds horrible to say that. and I guess I dont know how to feel about anything or what to do. it's all still raw...I just feel numb. Mum and me had to go and buy some food yesterday and I could barely comprehend even doing that, and I still can't, even basic stuff. I don't even really know what to say. or how to feel. thanks everyone for all your kinda words and support, I know I keep saying it but it means so much to me to have friends like you guys. and I apologise in advance, I am probs gonna be a major pain in the ass over the next few weeks. I'll try not to be. but sorry in advance if I am. and thanks again to Leigh and Carly for keeping me company over the last couple of nights. just have to try and get on now. sorry to post this on here but I don't think I can face telling everybody individually.