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I have just had to help Dad up the stairs so he can go to bed...for those of you who know my house and my stairs, he had to stop about 4 times on the way up...I hate seeing him suffer like this. he just looks like he doesn't wanna go on. this may sound like an awful thing to say, but I wish he didn't have to suffer like this, I wish he didnt have to go through all these trips to hospital for tests and this treatment, the state he is in he is only getting worse. I don't want him to die, but I dont want him to go through this. I guess all I can do is try and help him as much as I can. so I can't begin to imagine what he is going through, or how he must be feeling, but it's just fucking horrible seeing him in the state he is in. I feel so helpless, I wish there was something I could do. by the way, sorry I havent got back to those who have emailed me, I will. I promise.