sorry, the depression starts again
I'll feel ok tomorrow but that shitty sick feeling has just come back, I hardly touched my dinner and I just feel so goddamn low today, I can't shake it, I don't know what causes it, but it's there. again. I feel like a complete failure in my life. I fuck everything up. it's the same old shit I know (not to mention one fucking huge cliche) but it's how I feel. I see Dad sat opposite me at the dinner table, and I just want to help him. I want to make him feel better but there's nothing I can do. he just looks like he has given up, and he just wants it all to end. I feel so helpless. and so alone. I know I'm not the only one with problems but shit I can't stop feeling so fucking down. it just comes on sometimes when I feel ok, and the rest of the time it's always there. and it's not just Dad that causes it either. I wanna sort myself out (I thought I was beginning to) but I have no fucking clue where to start. really need to see my councillor again I spose. I will be happy, dammit. I hope so anyway.