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Drastic changes arent good for the mind.
Garrett doesnt believe in headaches and I am thankful he doesnt get them.
A mixture between nausea and a pounding head.
Music on my phone and futile attmepts to stay focused.
Its not working.
I never have time.
I never get enough time to accomadate myself to things.
Once things start feeling ok, they are changed.
I thought these new things wouldnt make me tired.
I wish I could sleep as soon as I got home.
Just a nice, long, much needed nap.
But the parents would think Im lazy.
The price I pay for being so secretive.
But the less they know the sooner I cant get my life back, when this is all over.
They said I should be in bed rest.
He says Im a tough girl.
Maybe just not very smart when it comes to these things.
Im hot.
I just got shivers.
Wierd.
I discovered that volleyball is not the reason why my muscles ache.
I was beginning to question my endurance.
Last night my sister crept into bed with me after having a nightmare.
Funny because she was sleeping with the parents and she crept out to sleep with me.
I sang to her and held her close.
In the midst of her drifting back to sleep, she asked me,
"Why do I love you so much?"
I didnt have an answer.
I could have said because we're family, but that would have been incorrect.
I could have said bacause you have to, but that would have been a lie.
Instead I told her that I didnt know why she loved me.
But that I loved her just as much.
Im not sure where I was going with this post.
Just random thoughts in an unfocused mind.
I started at 2:25pm and it is now 4:31pm.
Head ache has gotten worse, and Im sure the ladies think Im pregnant
for running to the bathroom and coming out with watery eyes.
I need a place to rest my tired mind and body.
Someplace other than my desk at work.
Garrett doesnt believe in headaches and I am thankful he doesnt get them.
A mixture between nausea and a pounding head.
Music on my phone and futile attmepts to stay focused.
Its not working.
I never have time.
I never get enough time to accomadate myself to things.
Once things start feeling ok, they are changed.
I thought these new things wouldnt make me tired.
I wish I could sleep as soon as I got home.
Just a nice, long, much needed nap.
But the parents would think Im lazy.
The price I pay for being so secretive.
But the less they know the sooner I cant get my life back, when this is all over.
They said I should be in bed rest.
He says Im a tough girl.
Maybe just not very smart when it comes to these things.
Im hot.
I just got shivers.
Wierd.
I discovered that volleyball is not the reason why my muscles ache.
I was beginning to question my endurance.
Last night my sister crept into bed with me after having a nightmare.
Funny because she was sleeping with the parents and she crept out to sleep with me.
I sang to her and held her close.
In the midst of her drifting back to sleep, she asked me,
"Why do I love you so much?"
I didnt have an answer.
I could have said because we're family, but that would have been incorrect.
I could have said bacause you have to, but that would have been a lie.
Instead I told her that I didnt know why she loved me.
But that I loved her just as much.
Im not sure where I was going with this post.
Just random thoughts in an unfocused mind.
I started at 2:25pm and it is now 4:31pm.
Head ache has gotten worse, and Im sure the ladies think Im pregnant
for running to the bathroom and coming out with watery eyes.
I need a place to rest my tired mind and body.
Someplace other than my desk at work.