in love again. . .
this is what happens, I think: each spring I develop an unspecified want, a longing for something/body/place and it takes over and turns me into a big upright craving. this spring I've been channeling that want into Nick, who isn't playing along and leaves my craving open and sore.
but now! I have a new channel. it is a beautiful soprano ukulele:
kyle gave it to me about a month ago. last night I took it out of its case and put new strings on it and tuned it and learned my first four chords -- all with youtube's help -- and I am smitten.
I love its littleness, and I love its pretty ribbity sound, and I love that there are only four strings -- it feels like just enough for a lazy brain like mine to handle. it's enough to feel like play, not work. there is no right or wrong technique, no rigid rules. there's only sound or not-sound, comfort or discomfort. it is a good instrument for the undisciplined :).
so this is my baby, it's filling up my heart. welcome baby :).