don't fear the reaper
so:
here's what I've been doing wrong:
I've been thinking about leaving as if I were dying:
I have to accomplish this before I go
I need to talk to so-and-so before I go
I won't be able to do such-and-such after I've gone
I wish I could see x one last time
This will be the Very Last Time I get to do z
and so on. and it's been killing me, the finality and the crush of packing it all in "before I'm gone."
and this is stupid. because why am I leaving? to do some more living. to become more deeply and differently alive.
so that feels a lot better.
anyways it's not even for very long. my visa's only good for a couple of months, and my ticket has me back in february, although I think I'm going to try to extend them both while I'm there.
It's my last day with the Bobs, which I don't think I'll ever be sad about, although they're awfully nice people to work for. Chris, the one not-Bob in the office, told me he'd hire me when I come back: "Don't go through that temp agency. You come right to us." This is not legal, but it is very Chicago. It's also something I hope I won't have to do. but it's nice to have a safety net.
we're getting pizza for lunch. which is awesome, because I'm starving :).
aaaaaaaaaaaaand it's here! :)
here's what I've been doing wrong:
I've been thinking about leaving as if I were dying:
I have to accomplish this before I go
I need to talk to so-and-so before I go
I won't be able to do such-and-such after I've gone
I wish I could see x one last time
This will be the Very Last Time I get to do z
and so on. and it's been killing me, the finality and the crush of packing it all in "before I'm gone."
and this is stupid. because why am I leaving? to do some more living. to become more deeply and differently alive.
so that feels a lot better.
anyways it's not even for very long. my visa's only good for a couple of months, and my ticket has me back in february, although I think I'm going to try to extend them both while I'm there.
It's my last day with the Bobs, which I don't think I'll ever be sad about, although they're awfully nice people to work for. Chris, the one not-Bob in the office, told me he'd hire me when I come back: "Don't go through that temp agency. You come right to us." This is not legal, but it is very Chicago. It's also something I hope I won't have to do. but it's nice to have a safety net.
we're getting pizza for lunch. which is awesome, because I'm starving :).
aaaaaaaaaaaaand it's here! :)