wonderful
So I am about as unhappy as I can get right now. Just when I thought i was doing things right I fuck them up. I lied to mym om about going into work yesterday becuase I knew she would be mad at me, and she found out anyway. GREAT. the reason I didn't go to work was becuase Iw as going on job interveiws all night. Apperently work called me a bunch to say they needed me, didn't get the messages till about 10 mins ago. YAY for my phone, so now work is pissed at me, my mom is pissed at me. and all I want to do is crawl into a hole. I think I found a few jobs down at school I can work. BUT yet again mom isn't happy with that. I think I am going to put in my two weeks at CVCC today or sunday becuase I found the other jobs. I tell my mom this and instead of saying ohhh thats good, or somehitng all she is can say is "what about your animals?" Well I don't know. The drive up here kills me, why should I drive over an hr to come to work when I can drive 15/20 mins and go to work making the same amount of money if not more? I don't know. I try to make things better in my life and it seems to make them worse. who the fuck knows. I give up.