Its bigger yo
Today was a very emotional day
Joe called while the sara and i were eating breakfast and then it started to go down from there. Sara kinda got pissed off at joe and yelled at him because he was talking to Chris while he was on the phone with me. I mean im used to it and it doesnt really piss me off but i just get really bored. Saras just looking out for me :) I tend not to be able to tell people when things are bothering me. After saras little out burst he wasnt talking so I went into the other room and talked to him. Apperently he called to see if i wanted to hang out and he wanted to talk about the whole "Ben thing". He was really upset about it and was all crying so yes then i started crying. I know how he feels with trusting people and what not. I havent really had anyone that i can trust. Even at times my mind wonders and thinks about all the oh god hes gonna cheat on me or the does he really love me sanarios but then i realize its Joseph. With him .. Damn i just cant explain it its just perfect.. I love him so much and I know he loves me. Yea i know im dumb but this is what love does to you. Anyway i got a bit off subject. Well after the talk i dropped off sara and proceeded to get ready to go over his house. I was a bit late in arriving there but it takes time to be purty and we all know i need it. Once I walked in the door and saw his face everything just felt so right and i just forgot about everything and see once again i always get off track with the thoughts of my wonderful Joseph. Anyway once again i had a GREAT time over there :P I cant believe m so lucky to have him