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[noplaceforthee]

I just wanted you to know that I was talking on Deirdre's post the other day and replying back and forth with her housemate Jinx and, well, I mean, I wasn't really flirting because I'm with you - completely and totally - but it was sort of like flirting and I just didn't want you to be upset. And I could try and write this elequently but I'll take

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[noplaceforthee]

No, please don't pamper me! I don't deserve pampering! And I can't- the flirting thing, I don't, I'm not a flirter and I was just being silly there but, god, I couldn't sleep thinking about it what you might think if you saw it, and even if you didn't see it just the fact that I did it. And- I feel insane right now, I know I probably sound it. I just feel so guilty and awful and like the worst girlfriend in the entire world and I can't help thinking how you must be mad at me for this even though you say you're not and-

I know you're not mad. At least, I'm managing to 75 percent convince myself of it in any case, which is pretty good for me, I guess. It's just... I feel all wrong and mixed up and I just don't want you to be upset with me.

And... you said you wanted me to share with you when things upset me and so I'm sharing and coming off like this complete obsessive freaked out girl which is fitting, I suppose, because this is exactly how manic and freaked out I feel inside my head almost all the time when I think about you and me when I've done things that were wrong. God damn it. I shouldn't even be saying all this.

[odd_symmetry]

I'm glad you shared, Adrina, and I do not think you are insane or anything. I'm glad to know how you feel. I really am. When I said you could tell me anything, I meant it.

You don't have to flirt with other people, I was just saying it won't upset me if you do! I can see now that you were saying it upsets you though. Adrina, I am not mad. I am not mad, I am not mad, I am not mad. You do deserve pampering, for the least reason being you were honest with me, and mostly because you did nothing wrong and you feel bad about it. I want to make you feel better.

I'm not upset. I love you.

[noplaceforthee]

I'm really glad you're not upset. I don't ever want to give you reason to be upset with me if I can help it.

[odd_symmetry]

You haven't ever given me a reason yet. I don't think you ever will. I'm not really easy to upset.

Is it okay if I come over, or is it be snuggled by Quinn time?

I will not be upset either way.

[noplaceforthee]

I'm really glad.

Quinn, please. But I'll come see you tomorrow!

[odd_symmetry]

And I'll see you then, Honey. Let Quinn take good care of you, okay?

[noplaceforthee]

He always does.

Thank you, Eamon.

[odd_symmetry]

I know he does, and I appreciate it endlessly.

You're absolutely welcome.