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I can't stop crying. I can't stop shaking. I can't be alone. I can't I can't I can't I can't and I hate it all so much.
Please, wake up, Quinn. I'm so so sorry. I'm so sorry that I didn't protect you. I should have been there. I should have been with you and instead you were so worried about me and how can I still feel this scared when Mac is gone and my eye isn't swollen shut any more. Everything on the outside heals and nothing on the inside ever does. It just just forms a skin that breaks all over again.
I can't do this. I can't stay here. What if Mac comes back? What if he's just waiting and now there's not even a Quinn and I'm not even safe in my own house and I can't I can't I CAN'T.
I can't talk to anyone. Everything is so selfish. Quinn could be broken again and never wake up properly and this time no angel can heal him and all I can do is cry and jump at every little sound. How can I stay here? How can I possibly be this selfish horrible person around all these wonderful people?
Please, wake up, Quinn. I'm so so sorry. I'm so sorry that I didn't protect you. I should have been there. I should have been with you and instead you were so worried about me and how can I still feel this scared when Mac is gone and my eye isn't swollen shut any more. Everything on the outside heals and nothing on the inside ever does. It just just forms a skin that breaks all over again.
I can't do this. I can't stay here. What if Mac comes back? What if he's just waiting and now there's not even a Quinn and I'm not even safe in my own house and I can't I can't I CAN'T.
I can't talk to anyone. Everything is so selfish. Quinn could be broken again and never wake up properly and this time no angel can heal him and all I can do is cry and jump at every little sound. How can I stay here? How can I possibly be this selfish horrible person around all these wonderful people?