from my myspace. thought id post it in here
So I can daydream All I want about it. Listen to the songs we used to listen to over and over and replay those moments like a rewinded video tape of your favorite childhood cartoon you would play god knows how manytimes because you just couldnt get enough!
I weigh the pros an the cons of being with him and not being with him. I keep it to myself as best I can for fear that people will think im obsessing over this fairly short and not very well rounded relationship. This boy has my head spinning. I know I can get over him if I could make a friend Ive got to know over the past couple of months that he and I would be a perfect couple. I talk to him about all my Sam woes and he talks to me about his lady problems. So that right there is ur number one hit on the head reminding you that this isnt the guy for you he doesnt like you.. a punch in the stomache comes shortly after, but god forbid he finds out that late at night when i do actully try to do the un normal for me (sleep) i fall asleep by setting up a scenario of what it would be like if he and i were a couple.. when i go to sleep an wake up an remember that innocent love fantasy i realize that sam didnt come to mind one bit. but then i realize that this is all one big mind fuck. do i do what feels like smothering sam into trying this out one more time... giving it one more chance .. or do i put my friendship on the line and try to make love out of friendship.. those are the best relationship origins. friends then lovers
not i like u and u like me lets hook up. kind of what happened with sam.. made the first night of spending an evening at an intimate coffee house for 4 hours talking and waiting and akward silences and quick eye glances and stares and looking down at ur coffee feeling stupid very akward and stressfull.
i highly reccomend being friends with ur crush before u stalk him and know everything about him but when u finally tell him or her u want to hook up an u go on a date u dont want to blurt out everything u know about him or u will just look like a stalker.
is ne one understanding where im going with this?
i totally had something else in mind when i layed in bed an got my laptop out but i just started writing all the above. an im finding myself quite sleepy and confused as to what i should do with my guy dillema.. sure guys are asking me on dates and calling me and im just nnot interested . ive turned down 3 guys in the last 2 weeks an there all perfectly normal handsome cute sweet boys... but nooooooo i have sam on the brain and this other guy who will remain unnamed. on the brain.. and i turn off my dates cuz i bring up past relationships
i cant help it
im lost
confused
these boys cause 2 much stress
I weigh the pros an the cons of being with him and not being with him. I keep it to myself as best I can for fear that people will think im obsessing over this fairly short and not very well rounded relationship. This boy has my head spinning. I know I can get over him if I could make a friend Ive got to know over the past couple of months that he and I would be a perfect couple. I talk to him about all my Sam woes and he talks to me about his lady problems. So that right there is ur number one hit on the head reminding you that this isnt the guy for you he doesnt like you.. a punch in the stomache comes shortly after, but god forbid he finds out that late at night when i do actully try to do the un normal for me (sleep) i fall asleep by setting up a scenario of what it would be like if he and i were a couple.. when i go to sleep an wake up an remember that innocent love fantasy i realize that sam didnt come to mind one bit. but then i realize that this is all one big mind fuck. do i do what feels like smothering sam into trying this out one more time... giving it one more chance .. or do i put my friendship on the line and try to make love out of friendship.. those are the best relationship origins. friends then lovers
not i like u and u like me lets hook up. kind of what happened with sam.. made the first night of spending an evening at an intimate coffee house for 4 hours talking and waiting and akward silences and quick eye glances and stares and looking down at ur coffee feeling stupid very akward and stressfull.
i highly reccomend being friends with ur crush before u stalk him and know everything about him but when u finally tell him or her u want to hook up an u go on a date u dont want to blurt out everything u know about him or u will just look like a stalker.
is ne one understanding where im going with this?
i totally had something else in mind when i layed in bed an got my laptop out but i just started writing all the above. an im finding myself quite sleepy and confused as to what i should do with my guy dillema.. sure guys are asking me on dates and calling me and im just nnot interested . ive turned down 3 guys in the last 2 weeks an there all perfectly normal handsome cute sweet boys... but nooooooo i have sam on the brain and this other guy who will remain unnamed. on the brain.. and i turn off my dates cuz i bring up past relationships
i cant help it
im lost
confused
these boys cause 2 much stress