You have my heart,your my star even through the dark
I realize that the main reason i love my job so much and why i treat my patients the way I do is because I dont have control of my own life. I life was so shitty for a long time,and is so dark now that I get shine through to my patients. I'm so happy at work and so caring because I can't get that care or compassion anywhere else.
I use to think that I had enough for myself and could just be alone,but I think in return it made me a angry person. Do I drink alot..yes I'll admit it. I drink away problems...In fact I believe I'm going down the same pattern as before when I was 12. Oh well everyone does it once in a while to get over things, I'm for right now choosing to ignore them.
I fucking hate auburn,I fucking hate bills mom,I fucking hate my life.
I lost the one person closest to my heart but theres nothing I can really do to fight back. All I have in the end our my stories. I've helped save so many,been there for so many,done so much for so many...but in the end when im screaming I realize im alone.
I use to think that I had enough for myself and could just be alone,but I think in return it made me a angry person. Do I drink alot..yes I'll admit it. I drink away problems...In fact I believe I'm going down the same pattern as before when I was 12. Oh well everyone does it once in a while to get over things, I'm for right now choosing to ignore them.
I fucking hate auburn,I fucking hate bills mom,I fucking hate my life.
I lost the one person closest to my heart but theres nothing I can really do to fight back. All I have in the end our my stories. I've helped save so many,been there for so many,done so much for so many...but in the end when im screaming I realize im alone.