Too Long Gone, and don't ask her on a straight tequilla night
So to update.
I feel like this is the one I can write and Bill can't read however I havent updated in forever. I'll start with most recent. I went to Krock..and for the first time in like 4 or 5 yrs. I flashed my boobs. It was fun, got lots of beads, and my friend Steph H., along with Sam j. and another girl (I just met but she friends with all my friends), made money working at the bead tent so that was cool. The only part that made me was chris cornell was there and we didn't get to see him cuz all my friends were drunk and tired.
In other news I havent worked in over a week cuz the factory that I work has no work, and I don't think there going to last the year. So once again I'll have to find a job.
WHY CAN'T GOD JUST GIVE ME A BREAK?!?!?!?
I know some of my friends think I'm worthless, annoying, and swear too much,don't like my boyfriend, or just don't like me, but thats no reason for god to be a dick.
I'm almost 21 yrs. and Im no where that I wanted to be by this age. Of course I kinda had the feeling that my plan wouldn't work out that way I wanted to anyways. I know for a few friends they prolly still think Im a drunk, but Im not.
I really hate the fact that I had to grow up alot quicker than my friends back in high school, whether they want to admit it or not I know I did, and drinking at the time helped. I dealt with more in my 3 yrs. of high school then anyone I know so far.
I hate the fact all my life men have always been attracted to me, even know. Personally for one day I just want to see what everyone else see's.
I haven't talked to my real father in about 3 yrs. personally it makes me mad on how I handle the situation, I was too nice to him, wish I wasn't.
I feel horrible about my grandparents. Ialways told them that when I got older I would have them live with me in my big house, so much for that.
My grandmother is another reason I need to make money cuz since she doesnt have insurance I want to pay for her knee that she can barely walk on, in fact the other week she bought a cane to help her walk around.
My grandfather makes me cry all the time cuz I want him to retire, but he has no retirement plan.
I really miss the country sometimes. I miss Cinny. I sometimes almost feel like I shouldn't have a relationship and just take care of my grandparents, but I know I can't really do that.
In other news I realized my ulimate b-day present would be to have huge party up at cinny. with all my friends and all my friends up at cinny. I just want my friends to go up there just to see how i lived there.
I'm so different now that sometimes I hate myself. I don't dance anymore, or sing, I complete quit on cars.
In other news for my b-day I'm hoping to get enough to go to the fair on the 1st of sept. and I will get drunk for the first time since high school.
Also most of my friends are in college, I have plans to go back when I get aid, right now I don't. I figure I will go back for indust. design.
K well I'll have to finish later my friend is here.
I feel like this is the one I can write and Bill can't read however I havent updated in forever. I'll start with most recent. I went to Krock..and for the first time in like 4 or 5 yrs. I flashed my boobs. It was fun, got lots of beads, and my friend Steph H., along with Sam j. and another girl (I just met but she friends with all my friends), made money working at the bead tent so that was cool. The only part that made me was chris cornell was there and we didn't get to see him cuz all my friends were drunk and tired.
In other news I havent worked in over a week cuz the factory that I work has no work, and I don't think there going to last the year. So once again I'll have to find a job.
WHY CAN'T GOD JUST GIVE ME A BREAK?!?!?!?
I know some of my friends think I'm worthless, annoying, and swear too much,don't like my boyfriend, or just don't like me, but thats no reason for god to be a dick.
I'm almost 21 yrs. and Im no where that I wanted to be by this age. Of course I kinda had the feeling that my plan wouldn't work out that way I wanted to anyways. I know for a few friends they prolly still think Im a drunk, but Im not.
I really hate the fact that I had to grow up alot quicker than my friends back in high school, whether they want to admit it or not I know I did, and drinking at the time helped. I dealt with more in my 3 yrs. of high school then anyone I know so far.
I hate the fact all my life men have always been attracted to me, even know. Personally for one day I just want to see what everyone else see's.
I haven't talked to my real father in about 3 yrs. personally it makes me mad on how I handle the situation, I was too nice to him, wish I wasn't.
I feel horrible about my grandparents. Ialways told them that when I got older I would have them live with me in my big house, so much for that.
My grandmother is another reason I need to make money cuz since she doesnt have insurance I want to pay for her knee that she can barely walk on, in fact the other week she bought a cane to help her walk around.
My grandfather makes me cry all the time cuz I want him to retire, but he has no retirement plan.
I really miss the country sometimes. I miss Cinny. I sometimes almost feel like I shouldn't have a relationship and just take care of my grandparents, but I know I can't really do that.
In other news I realized my ulimate b-day present would be to have huge party up at cinny. with all my friends and all my friends up at cinny. I just want my friends to go up there just to see how i lived there.
I'm so different now that sometimes I hate myself. I don't dance anymore, or sing, I complete quit on cars.
In other news for my b-day I'm hoping to get enough to go to the fair on the 1st of sept. and I will get drunk for the first time since high school.
Also most of my friends are in college, I have plans to go back when I get aid, right now I don't. I figure I will go back for indust. design.
K well I'll have to finish later my friend is here.