I cant help u fix urself but at least i can say i tryed im sorry but i gotta move on w/ my own lifef
My theory about my current situation:
Everytime i go through a changing period or hard time in my life i always have a guy by my side to lean on. Good in some ways by in other. So now here i am back in michigan wanting something i cant have
Do you ever get home from a sleepless night and get greeted with the fury of an angry parent? I took for granted the freedom iowa gave me. I am trying to cope and its so hard to not just want to run out of the house and go do something sparatic. There i could come home anytime and be in whatever degree of fucked up i wanted to be. I didnt have to worry about whether or not to bring a boy over to watch tv. Jeremy came with us up to central and my dad flipped. He was so rude to him and i didnt know how to handle the situation. I just left not considering stopping and thinking hey maybe i should explain that its just jeremy. I am so effected by my enviroment its crazy. Only depending and answering to myself. I like that. But now slowly i will start again to worry about rules and restrictions and i will hate myself for it. He sent me there and now trys to undo what that place has produced in me. From now on i make those big decisions for myself. I dont want someone fucking up my life for me! I do a great job of it myself. just kidding!
A venture way back into my past....wayyyy back
Yea i just realized i fucked up. I dumped him....for....which turned out to be a huge mistake. He made mistakes too but i reacted to quickly. Theres gotta feeling still there right?
Im so confused
Everytime i go through a changing period or hard time in my life i always have a guy by my side to lean on. Good in some ways by in other. So now here i am back in michigan wanting something i cant have
Do you ever get home from a sleepless night and get greeted with the fury of an angry parent? I took for granted the freedom iowa gave me. I am trying to cope and its so hard to not just want to run out of the house and go do something sparatic. There i could come home anytime and be in whatever degree of fucked up i wanted to be. I didnt have to worry about whether or not to bring a boy over to watch tv. Jeremy came with us up to central and my dad flipped. He was so rude to him and i didnt know how to handle the situation. I just left not considering stopping and thinking hey maybe i should explain that its just jeremy. I am so effected by my enviroment its crazy. Only depending and answering to myself. I like that. But now slowly i will start again to worry about rules and restrictions and i will hate myself for it. He sent me there and now trys to undo what that place has produced in me. From now on i make those big decisions for myself. I dont want someone fucking up my life for me! I do a great job of it myself. just kidding!
A venture way back into my past....wayyyy back
Yea i just realized i fucked up. I dumped him....for....which turned out to be a huge mistake. He made mistakes too but i reacted to quickly. Theres gotta feeling still there right?
Im so confused