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I think you guys know me better than my mother. Dad too for that matter. It really sucks being on my own. Goals in life aren't being reached and i'm scared of being a nobody.T I know there are people a lot worse off though. I know I should be thankful for what I do have. People say we create our own problems and we make our own fun. But I'm pretty sure the beings who produced us are supposed to give some kind of guidance and help with finances until we get our lives straight. Parents can create our problems just as much as we can. But if the ones who gave birth to us don't have their lives in the works first, then we're fucked i guess.
It would be nice to not have braces after 4 years.(They've been ready to come off for a year) Thanks a whole bunch mother. I hope I die with these bastards on my fucking teeth. It would be nice to be in college and have a decent car. Oh yeah, I did have a car that got fucking totalled the first day I had it. My friends are declining and thats harder to find transportation to the workplace. I love salvation army shopping, but god damn, it would be nice to have some nice fresh looking rags once in a while. It would be nice to have my father call me once in a while and take me fishing or go horseback riding like hes promised me since I was 10 years old. You know, as much as I don't talk to my father I feel he had some of the same childhood experiences that I'm going through. I need to step back and look at what hes done in his life and how he views the world. But his views are reasonable I guess. You can't trust anybody because they'll fuck you soo hard. And "who's gods dad?" Thats his famous drunken rage question. Snorted cocaine in front of me and my mom when I was 4 yrs old. That must be where I get it from right? Cheated on my mom. My mom stayed with him for my brother and I. She worked her ass off to pay bills and buy my dads alcohol. He has so much talent inside him and never used any of it. Beautiful painter and a better drummer than Rick Allen with both of his arms. To this day he still drinks and has been fucked over so many times im starting to understand why. As much as I hate them both I respect them for what they've gone through. And thats just since I've been born. My mother was the smart one and got an awesome job designing kitchens out in BFE Walled Lake, left my dad, after he threw a shoe at me. Met some asshole a couple years later, quit her job and married him. Then she found out he was a broke ass and his dumbass karate business will never bring in enough money to support his 3 kids and her 2. To this day shes still with him and hasnt had electricity in her house for about 3 months. She left me in Walled Lake because my job and friends are here. She also left me with a $3,000 orthodontist bill, a $389 hospitol bill from me having pink eye and no bed. It was given to my asshole stepbrother. I Want to be better than them.
Taco Bell sucks ass. My coworkers are awesome. 2 years next month. Thats rediculous. As this year speeds by, i stop talking to more and more people. I have very few people I can actually stand to hang out with. Naive, mother fuckers that just want to get fucked up all the time.
It would be nice to not have braces after 4 years.(They've been ready to come off for a year) Thanks a whole bunch mother. I hope I die with these bastards on my fucking teeth. It would be nice to be in college and have a decent car. Oh yeah, I did have a car that got fucking totalled the first day I had it. My friends are declining and thats harder to find transportation to the workplace. I love salvation army shopping, but god damn, it would be nice to have some nice fresh looking rags once in a while. It would be nice to have my father call me once in a while and take me fishing or go horseback riding like hes promised me since I was 10 years old. You know, as much as I don't talk to my father I feel he had some of the same childhood experiences that I'm going through. I need to step back and look at what hes done in his life and how he views the world. But his views are reasonable I guess. You can't trust anybody because they'll fuck you soo hard. And "who's gods dad?" Thats his famous drunken rage question. Snorted cocaine in front of me and my mom when I was 4 yrs old. That must be where I get it from right? Cheated on my mom. My mom stayed with him for my brother and I. She worked her ass off to pay bills and buy my dads alcohol. He has so much talent inside him and never used any of it. Beautiful painter and a better drummer than Rick Allen with both of his arms. To this day he still drinks and has been fucked over so many times im starting to understand why. As much as I hate them both I respect them for what they've gone through. And thats just since I've been born. My mother was the smart one and got an awesome job designing kitchens out in BFE Walled Lake, left my dad, after he threw a shoe at me. Met some asshole a couple years later, quit her job and married him. Then she found out he was a broke ass and his dumbass karate business will never bring in enough money to support his 3 kids and her 2. To this day shes still with him and hasnt had electricity in her house for about 3 months. She left me in Walled Lake because my job and friends are here. She also left me with a $3,000 orthodontist bill, a $389 hospitol bill from me having pink eye and no bed. It was given to my asshole stepbrother. I Want to be better than them.
Taco Bell sucks ass. My coworkers are awesome. 2 years next month. Thats rediculous. As this year speeds by, i stop talking to more and more people. I have very few people I can actually stand to hang out with. Naive, mother fuckers that just want to get fucked up all the time.