RANTS
GOTH MOMENT!
Burning crosses on a ******'s lawn burning dollars what's a house without a home?
dance in your white sheet glory dance in your passion
talk about sugar on the six fingered beast conversation about the holes in your hands
walk through the garden of men's desires
conversations about the kingdom of fire
conversations about the kingdom of fire
What's that moving in the basement? What's that moving in the addict?
Who's that walking in the shadow Who's that walking in the streets
Kiss on my hand After dark
Kiss on my hand After dark a kiss on my hand
Romance in sequence Harmful to the blind
Burning hearts through the top of your skull
Dance in your white sheet glory Dance in your passion
your days are numbered with pretense in your pocket
your days are numbered with the love in your eyes
the love in your eyes
Love
What's that moving in the basement? What's that moving in the addict?
Who's that lying on the altar? Who's that lying in the streets
Pull down the sheets Take off your clothes Get on the bed
I'm so tired
Pull down the sheets Take off your clothes
Get on the bed
I'm so tired...
I've been really lazy, but whatever "void" I had is filled and there's nothing too much to worry about. I unfortunately have been going to too many parties, but I think that me socializing is just my way to "let loose" you could say. If only I had a happy median between work and play, then I'd be woman on top. I also don't worry about finding someone (FINALLY!) I don't know why I was so concerned anyway. I think college is a time for soul searching, good times, good work, and making friends, not and time of fiscal marriage proposals and getting your heart "broken" from all the lays you receive (though those can be good if you're responsible-- and part of the experience I suppose)
But worrying about chasing tail all the time seems pretty, well... meaningless. And you're never gonna find anyone if you are always just SETTLING, so you might as well not have the idea of GETTIN' LAID or finding love in mind to begin with. I think there's a lot of regrets when you do that, like how you got far too involved with going home with someone that you missed the bonding with your good friends and good laughs. Friendship is key. I don't care who you, it just is.
And don't get me started on marriage and babies! I'm beginning to feel like that is a chapter in my life that I'm kind of hoping not to happen.
What brought all this up was this one supposed friend Lets name her AP (cause those are her initials) ditched me at party to go hang out with some guy. She pretty much used me for a ride, and then went off with this guy. I mean, I'm not TOO mad cause I had other friends with me, but just the fact that she was too wrapped up in her bullshit that she could not even understand how rude that was.
I don't think I've done that to a friend before, maybe cause I'm not so COCKMONGERING, who knows?
Alright, my rant is over, and now it's time for me to start papers, and then eat some food (yeah, my sleep schedule is all kinds of fucked)
P.S --
I'm off Birth Control now, I think that's the reason for so much
ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION
I finally feel a lot better, but wishing that laziness would just really leave my body.
Alright, I'm done.