Shes found
So....came home today. My mothers home...........
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She had a re-lapse. She was out doing drugs.
I don't know what to do. I can't grasp throwing three years of such hard work to say clean. Three years is such a fucking long time.
I'm supposed to be strong. But its hard. I keep trying to get up and I get pushed down.......
............ I don't want to wallow in self-pity with my mother.
We have no money...she spent every dime that she has saved in her bank account over the last three years.
I don't want to go live with my grandmother again. I don't want to go to NA meetings or to the rehab center.
I'm so freaking selfish....I don't want to go spend the rest of the year they way I've lived for 16 years.
Life just fucking sucks.
.........................
She had a re-lapse. She was out doing drugs.
I don't know what to do. I can't grasp throwing three years of such hard work to say clean. Three years is such a fucking long time.
I'm supposed to be strong. But its hard. I keep trying to get up and I get pushed down.......
............ I don't want to wallow in self-pity with my mother.
We have no money...she spent every dime that she has saved in her bank account over the last three years.
I don't want to go live with my grandmother again. I don't want to go to NA meetings or to the rehab center.
I'm so freaking selfish....I don't want to go spend the rest of the year they way I've lived for 16 years.
Life just fucking sucks.