Logging on and zoning out
First off, a little side note. On his way out yesterday (which, since I am writing about his leaving, you are made aware of the fact that he left before me), my boss did thank me once more for the preparations I did for the meeting, this time saying it was "perfect." I feel slightly more appreciated. Ok, on to today....
....today I am so antsy. I woke up fidgety -- wiggling my legs and feet all around, trying to get comfy for 1/2 hour before finally giving in and getting up. Now I'm sitting here at work, and I keep shaking my legs and/or wiggling my feet, or clicking my pen. And I feel like my brain is doing the exact same thing, because I can't seem to focus on anything at all.
Today would be a very good lie-on-the-bed-and-gaze-up-at-reflections-on-a-tilted-cd-case day. For those of you who have never tried it, here are some recommendations:
1) Get a cd case.
2) Lie on your back on a bed/couch/floor/other horizontal surface. I recommend a bed, particularly because I recommend lying diagonally. It somehow just adds to the effect.
3) Rest the top edge of the cd case on your forehead, tilting the case toward your face so you can see it.
4) Gaze at it until you see the reflection on the cover, not the cd book inside.
5) Slowly tilt the case, watching as the world tilts and reflects upside down, sideways, and just plain oddly on the case.
6) Get lost in the moment(s).
It might sound incredibly bizarre to you, but it's something I discovered one day in a state of ennui. I threw a cd in the player, sort of wandered around the room for a bit, and then tossed myself backwards diagonally onto my bed, settling on looking at the cd cover as some visual entertainment. After staring for awhile at the cover art, my arm got tired of holding the case in the air, and I rested it on my forehead. I realized I could see the room reflected in it, and just tilted it all around, watching my room in different angles. Oddly, I was entertained for the duration of the cd.
OK, so maybe I am just easily entertained. But it is a nice break from reality. Just sit and try it. Then, sometime when you're supposed to be working and a "vacation" (read, to the working world, "long weekend") is approaching, you might get this antsy feeling. It's the feeling you get when you HAD a big project to work on, but you have since completed it, and you are a day and a half away from a long weekend with only non-time-pressing, non-thinking work to do. The kind of work that requires little to no thought, but yet you don't even have enough brain power to put that little thought into it, you are just completely zoned out. Some of you might be zoned out thinking about plans, or whatever. Some of you, like myself at this moment, might be zoned out completely. It's that feeling you get moments before falling asleep, but without the physically tired part. You're just....zoned out. Thinking about nothing. You don't want to work, you don't want to plan, you don't want to read, you don't want to watch tv, you don't want to sleep, you don't really want to do anything but zone out. You're not happy, sad, angry, upset, elated, worried, or anything. You just....ARE.
And then suddenly you might find yourself kicking back, and reaching for a cd case....
....today I am so antsy. I woke up fidgety -- wiggling my legs and feet all around, trying to get comfy for 1/2 hour before finally giving in and getting up. Now I'm sitting here at work, and I keep shaking my legs and/or wiggling my feet, or clicking my pen. And I feel like my brain is doing the exact same thing, because I can't seem to focus on anything at all.
Today would be a very good lie-on-the-bed-and-gaze-up-at-reflections-on-a-tilted-cd-case day. For those of you who have never tried it, here are some recommendations:
1) Get a cd case.
2) Lie on your back on a bed/couch/floor/other horizontal surface. I recommend a bed, particularly because I recommend lying diagonally. It somehow just adds to the effect.
3) Rest the top edge of the cd case on your forehead, tilting the case toward your face so you can see it.
4) Gaze at it until you see the reflection on the cover, not the cd book inside.
5) Slowly tilt the case, watching as the world tilts and reflects upside down, sideways, and just plain oddly on the case.
6) Get lost in the moment(s).
It might sound incredibly bizarre to you, but it's something I discovered one day in a state of ennui. I threw a cd in the player, sort of wandered around the room for a bit, and then tossed myself backwards diagonally onto my bed, settling on looking at the cd cover as some visual entertainment. After staring for awhile at the cover art, my arm got tired of holding the case in the air, and I rested it on my forehead. I realized I could see the room reflected in it, and just tilted it all around, watching my room in different angles. Oddly, I was entertained for the duration of the cd.
OK, so maybe I am just easily entertained. But it is a nice break from reality. Just sit and try it. Then, sometime when you're supposed to be working and a "vacation" (read, to the working world, "long weekend") is approaching, you might get this antsy feeling. It's the feeling you get when you HAD a big project to work on, but you have since completed it, and you are a day and a half away from a long weekend with only non-time-pressing, non-thinking work to do. The kind of work that requires little to no thought, but yet you don't even have enough brain power to put that little thought into it, you are just completely zoned out. Some of you might be zoned out thinking about plans, or whatever. Some of you, like myself at this moment, might be zoned out completely. It's that feeling you get moments before falling asleep, but without the physically tired part. You're just....zoned out. Thinking about nothing. You don't want to work, you don't want to plan, you don't want to read, you don't want to watch tv, you don't want to sleep, you don't really want to do anything but zone out. You're not happy, sad, angry, upset, elated, worried, or anything. You just....ARE.
And then suddenly you might find yourself kicking back, and reaching for a cd case....