the big goodbye...

[noone]

i exchanged messages with olga today. i finally heard what i needed to hear. it is over. the part of this that has been so agaonizing is the small embers of hope that have been smuldering inside me. i have been trying to stamp them out. i've even had notes all over my aprtment reminding me of why i moved uot, and that it is over. now, the embers have fianlly been put out. all the notes are down. i feel different. i feel better. i left her my final message on the subject today. i thanked her for finally coming clean. there are no hard feeling or regrets. i hope that we will meet in the future and get to catch up. i told her i hope she finds what she's looking for. i don't feel the weight anymore. thank you to everyone who's been there for me.

now... i'm gonna go make some movies...