time

[noodle890]

time is such a weird thing. it drags by when you want it to fly, and flies when it should be dragging. here i was over a year ago, thinking that today'd never come. i have less than 30 day's untill i graduate school. all my life, i've waited for that, now that it's so close, i don't want it to happen. in less than i week after graduating, i'll start the transformation into a man of great things. the marines, i'm not scared, im ready, i just want like another week to be a kid. to not give a shit and do what i want. and shit, all of my friends, who knows when i'll see 'em again. but i don't want to stay here. the city of hartselle is a trap. ask the teachers there, where did they go to school? hartselle. the buisnesses, hartselle people that have lived there all their lives. noone leaves that place, if they did, they wouldn't make it. i'm not living in a town where the weekend thing to do is either get drunk or high. all of this i've realized in the past few days. i don't know what'll happen to me in life, but i know i'll succed. i've grown up as a poor child. i've never had much, so when i do get something, i enjoy it. i had a father that was a crack addict and beat me. i've walked away from the brink of suicide, ready to give up and die. God turned me away. i know i don't seem very religious, but God knows i love him. just like my brother, i don't always show Him the love i need to, but it's still there. i will make it in this world. i know im something special. and i won't just roll over and let life pass me by in a shitty little town of assholes that think they're better than me. i will make it.

thanks for hearing me talk, i just had alot i needed to express tonight.

-Kevin