Sigh...
well that's odd. i had some stuff typed, then i looked up and it was gone... haha. maybe the cat stepped on the keyboard... who knows. i'm just feeling a little down tonight. so cheer me up or something... i don't know. i guess every once in a while i have to have a lapse in my overly huge self esteem, haha. i just don't understand how someone would want to spend the rest of thier life w/ me... its odd. just to think that i'm actually enough for once. that's never happened before. it makes me happy, but scared at the same time because i just can't understand why... i guess once i get my huge ego back tomorrow i'll make up a hundred and one reasons... just not feeling that great tonight though. blah, ignore my ramblings. its off to my spaghetti and cheese.. looks like vampire in brooklyn is on, do i dare make myself retarded by viewing it... i think i'm about to dumben myself, hee hee hee.