README! To all those I rarely talk to
I want to tell you something and I hope that you will all understand.
If I haven't spoken to you for a while, it's nothing you did. None of you have annoyed, upset or offended me.
I've just been hiding.
I still am.
You all probably know I'm terrified of the world. What you may not know, what I only just realised, is that I couldn't cope with the number of people who seemed to like me.
It frightens me, because for most of my life I had NO ONE.
It's not that I don't want to talk to you, any of you.
Even in those times when I am hiding, when I am not actively seeking communication, I'm always hoping you'll contact me. Any of you.
It's a self imposed loneliness. I think I brought this on myself because it was my familiar state of being.
I'm not ready to stop hiding yet, but I wanted you to understand.
I'd appreciate it if someone came looking for me online, email even. Hell, if you have my phone number, ring! Although I rarely pick up the phone unless I expect a call.
I miss you all.
If I haven't spoken to you for a while, it's nothing you did. None of you have annoyed, upset or offended me.
I've just been hiding.
I still am.
You all probably know I'm terrified of the world. What you may not know, what I only just realised, is that I couldn't cope with the number of people who seemed to like me.
It frightens me, because for most of my life I had NO ONE.
It's not that I don't want to talk to you, any of you.
Even in those times when I am hiding, when I am not actively seeking communication, I'm always hoping you'll contact me. Any of you.
It's a self imposed loneliness. I think I brought this on myself because it was my familiar state of being.
I'm not ready to stop hiding yet, but I wanted you to understand.
I'd appreciate it if someone came looking for me online, email even. Hell, if you have my phone number, ring! Although I rarely pick up the phone unless I expect a call.
I miss you all.