christMESS!
My Christmas so far has been like no other-it sucks. This is supposed to be one of the best times of the year, but I can't help, but see it as the worst. Nothings going like anyone said it would. First I wake up, and I get useless things, my dog pees all over the floor in my grandparents laundry room. Then I go to church, and my grandparents are Presbyterian. It creeped me out so much so I just spent my whole time ignoring the preacher dude who looks like the freaking Pope without that funky hat. I enjoyed sending pointless tezts to Jo & looking at my feet while going cross-eyed. Then my sister gets here along with Jeff, Jenni's brand new Jeep is messed up because of the transmition. This sucks because they have to have it towed, which means we have to take them home. 5 people, 2 dogs, 1 car. Merry fucking Christmas. Not to mention the presents that we're bringing home, and our suit cases. I knew I wanted to stay home for Christmas, but as always no one ever listens to me. I don't even know what time I work tomorrow. Things are so screwed up & it's really stressing me out. I miss Josiah, & I really wanted to see him today, but things aren't looking that way being that we have to drop Jenni & Jeff off now & we don't even know what time we're leaving. I'm just wishing that we don't hit traffic, but with my luck we will. New Years is going to be good. I'll make it that way even if I spend that day all to myself. I was planning on having a party, but now that I think about it, it'll be just too much. I just want to go home so bad right now, I want to call Josiah, but he's with his family at the aquarium & that's family time.
What a mess.
This probably has to do with me being homesick. It doesn't take much. It's nice to see my family that I only see once or twice a year, but I grow sick of them easily. It's just too much. I didn't get much sleep last night either because there was a horrible storm that shook the whole house, and my mothers snores. I can't stand one more minute here, I want to be home.
All day I've been missing Molly & Jo. All I want to do is have my ordinary day spend the day with Jo kissing, hugging, cuddling, laughing, doing stupid stuff for intertainment, sitting in the car as my adrenalin goes crazy because of his driving, standing on my front porch pecrastinating leaving each others sides, and not being able to help when he smiles. Then later that night spending it with Molly staying up until countless hours talking about anything, and everything, watching strange movies my mum has rented, and doing the dumbest things in the world. I hate that I want to leave so bad, but I can't help that. I just wish there was something different we could have done this year. I wanted to spend Christmas in my new home.
I hate this. I hate seeming so negative. Maybe it's my attitude. Too bad, so sad.
[yes, this is posted on myspace.]
What a mess.
This probably has to do with me being homesick. It doesn't take much. It's nice to see my family that I only see once or twice a year, but I grow sick of them easily. It's just too much. I didn't get much sleep last night either because there was a horrible storm that shook the whole house, and my mothers snores. I can't stand one more minute here, I want to be home.
All day I've been missing Molly & Jo. All I want to do is have my ordinary day spend the day with Jo kissing, hugging, cuddling, laughing, doing stupid stuff for intertainment, sitting in the car as my adrenalin goes crazy because of his driving, standing on my front porch pecrastinating leaving each others sides, and not being able to help when he smiles. Then later that night spending it with Molly staying up until countless hours talking about anything, and everything, watching strange movies my mum has rented, and doing the dumbest things in the world. I hate that I want to leave so bad, but I can't help that. I just wish there was something different we could have done this year. I wanted to spend Christmas in my new home.
I hate this. I hate seeming so negative. Maybe it's my attitude. Too bad, so sad.
[yes, this is posted on myspace.]