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im anxious at the moment, and i dont know why, i do but what im thinking about thats making me anxious shouldnt because it's not like its going to happen anytime soon.
it's been almost two months and i now relize it's time to move on, i don't want to completely forget about it, but i dont want to think about it everyday and dwell on it, its obvious theres no point in holding out any hope, so my goal is to not think about it, and keep whats in the past there, and don't try to bring it into my present/future, because it will only cause pain, i don't want to dwell on it.
ill just take what i've learned from this experience about myself and apply it to the next one, there's alot of things i see now that I need to change about myself if anything i have with someone else is ever going to work out.
for instance im going to work on my trust issue that was a major problem with me, i don't know why, but ill figure it out
im also going to love more freely, i mean, im not much of an emotional person only because i hold myself back and i think i'll sound or look stupid, thats something i want to change, whoever im with i want them to know i really love them, not have any sort of doubts about it or anything, and i want to show them every way i possibly can,even if its just as simple as calling them by something other then their name, like honey, or sweety or something, that always made me feel special so maybe someone else will feel special if i do it too, i just want to go the extra mile for who ever im with...but i expect the same thing from them, its not a 1 way street that makes things pointless.
i could look in mark's eye's forever
my fixation changes daily
it's been almost two months and i now relize it's time to move on, i don't want to completely forget about it, but i dont want to think about it everyday and dwell on it, its obvious theres no point in holding out any hope, so my goal is to not think about it, and keep whats in the past there, and don't try to bring it into my present/future, because it will only cause pain, i don't want to dwell on it.
ill just take what i've learned from this experience about myself and apply it to the next one, there's alot of things i see now that I need to change about myself if anything i have with someone else is ever going to work out.
for instance im going to work on my trust issue that was a major problem with me, i don't know why, but ill figure it out
im also going to love more freely, i mean, im not much of an emotional person only because i hold myself back and i think i'll sound or look stupid, thats something i want to change, whoever im with i want them to know i really love them, not have any sort of doubts about it or anything, and i want to show them every way i possibly can,even if its just as simple as calling them by something other then their name, like honey, or sweety or something, that always made me feel special so maybe someone else will feel special if i do it too, i just want to go the extra mile for who ever im with...but i expect the same thing from them, its not a 1 way street that makes things pointless.
i could look in mark's eye's forever
my fixation changes daily