nothing new.
... Its been a while since I posted something here.
Lately things seem to be stagnant and boring. It's kinda as if nothing really exciting is happening. You ponder and ponder and ponder, sometimes its just weird, why the hell isn't anything happening. Then you realize, I guess life has returned to the same old way, where things you do seem to be the same every other day. Although there are some things that change from time to time, like those who you talk to more has changed since, things haven't really been the same with the old friends.
You feel as if the old stereotype that people use to describe you has now come back. You guess it comes with the territory, being a noisy know-it-all and wall flower that you are. You don't force the issue with the other people they have their happiness with whatever is happening. If you think about it, things are going their way. Some of your friends are getting hooked-up, they've got lots of stories, that don't hear about but feel you know. (like i said know it all) Again you don't push the issue, if they feel they don't want to let you know then why force it?
In time you feel that the tides would turn. maybe, maybe not. You then tell yourself, you should be happy their still my friend and that you still have some idea to what is going on. After that you tell yourself, Your happy things are looking up for your friends and "WOW! what a happening, for a happening friend." then and there you're happy :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Some people seem to be uncomfortable around you, thus you try to prevent anything that would throw of that cup of nice and clear aura. Its kinda funny, when you finally think about it. You do so much things to prevent further hardships for you and those that are affected. You realize that sometimes, you are a friend for real, but sometimes, you're not sure people see it. Then you tell yourself, Whatever. You tell yourself you should be happy, nothing wrong is going on. and now your happy. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Some people, make you feel unwanted, even though you try to fit yourself. Some just never had the intention or idea that things about you have changed. The idea that you will always be a Snot-nosed-tactless-noisy-hypocritic asshole will be in their heads and you tell yourself, i can't change the mind of someone you respect so much, even though they're being a noisy-hypocrite themselves. but then you live with it, and be happy with the fact that he graces and gives you the light of day to listen to you and invite you to other outings and with that you tell yourself, be happy. Happy for the fact that someone with that stature is there not dissing you and making you feel small but just there. Now you say... ok happy? :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Some people are getting hooked up around you, and you feel you're gonna be the last to know. Now you think to yourself, what the hell do i care, but in reality you care a lot. You're just ashamed to tell them and to let all of them know. Sometimes you turn green with envy with whatever is happening to people around you, but you can't do anything but to accept. You don't have something special going for you, and you learn to live with it. You finally understand that You shouldn't be green but rather, red with joy. Now you feel better about yourself, happiness for others, happiness for friends. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
And now you feel you want something to live for, maybe someone special, after seeing that certain person that brightens your days, even though they don't really know you and you don't really know them. It still in fact brightens your "oh-so-so-so" days. yes, it gets a little brighter until you remember, you will never meet this person, you will never be a certain someone to them, just another face in the crowd. now you are once again crushed and slapped in the face with the sign "DON'T PUSH YOUR LUCK!" then you realize, maybe you're better of with whatever is happening in your life. You just think to yourself, at least your friends are happy. One day they'll see me happy, and they'll be happy for me... then you tell yourself, "aren't you an idealist" at least when the day comes you'll be happy too :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Lately things seem to be stagnant and boring. It's kinda as if nothing really exciting is happening. You ponder and ponder and ponder, sometimes its just weird, why the hell isn't anything happening. Then you realize, I guess life has returned to the same old way, where things you do seem to be the same every other day. Although there are some things that change from time to time, like those who you talk to more has changed since, things haven't really been the same with the old friends.
You feel as if the old stereotype that people use to describe you has now come back. You guess it comes with the territory, being a noisy know-it-all and wall flower that you are. You don't force the issue with the other people they have their happiness with whatever is happening. If you think about it, things are going their way. Some of your friends are getting hooked-up, they've got lots of stories, that don't hear about but feel you know. (like i said know it all) Again you don't push the issue, if they feel they don't want to let you know then why force it?
In time you feel that the tides would turn. maybe, maybe not. You then tell yourself, you should be happy their still my friend and that you still have some idea to what is going on. After that you tell yourself, Your happy things are looking up for your friends and "WOW! what a happening, for a happening friend." then and there you're happy :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Some people seem to be uncomfortable around you, thus you try to prevent anything that would throw of that cup of nice and clear aura. Its kinda funny, when you finally think about it. You do so much things to prevent further hardships for you and those that are affected. You realize that sometimes, you are a friend for real, but sometimes, you're not sure people see it. Then you tell yourself, Whatever. You tell yourself you should be happy, nothing wrong is going on. and now your happy. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Some people, make you feel unwanted, even though you try to fit yourself. Some just never had the intention or idea that things about you have changed. The idea that you will always be a Snot-nosed-tactless-noisy-hypocritic asshole will be in their heads and you tell yourself, i can't change the mind of someone you respect so much, even though they're being a noisy-hypocrite themselves. but then you live with it, and be happy with the fact that he graces and gives you the light of day to listen to you and invite you to other outings and with that you tell yourself, be happy. Happy for the fact that someone with that stature is there not dissing you and making you feel small but just there. Now you say... ok happy? :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Some people are getting hooked up around you, and you feel you're gonna be the last to know. Now you think to yourself, what the hell do i care, but in reality you care a lot. You're just ashamed to tell them and to let all of them know. Sometimes you turn green with envy with whatever is happening to people around you, but you can't do anything but to accept. You don't have something special going for you, and you learn to live with it. You finally understand that You shouldn't be green but rather, red with joy. Now you feel better about yourself, happiness for others, happiness for friends. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
And now you feel you want something to live for, maybe someone special, after seeing that certain person that brightens your days, even though they don't really know you and you don't really know them. It still in fact brightens your "oh-so-so-so" days. yes, it gets a little brighter until you remember, you will never meet this person, you will never be a certain someone to them, just another face in the crowd. now you are once again crushed and slapped in the face with the sign "DON'T PUSH YOUR LUCK!" then you realize, maybe you're better of with whatever is happening in your life. You just think to yourself, at least your friends are happy. One day they'll see me happy, and they'll be happy for me... then you tell yourself, "aren't you an idealist" at least when the day comes you'll be happy too :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D