Still
Spent time in wonderland today. Nice trip. Came back home to thunder shaking the house. I love it. It was a good adventure. I am tired, but at least I finally slept last night. Tied in knots, mind doing amazing feats of acrobatics, and it was all finally still. He pushes me, stretches me, and I like the pain. I felt it last night. It hurt in ways that I haven't in a long time. He still worries though. The questions are still on the table, the answers are under development, and I slept like the dead.
Ran enough power last night to produce static charge in my hair. My oiled skin went dry. Probably a good sign. He charged me first. Maybe that is part of what I miss. I pulled the power out, listened to the sound of neighborhood dogs going nuts. Storm came in, could have been tapping that. All of us tapping the same rush, makes things a bit odd. Still it was a rush. It hurt. I was worth it. Still need to tap the more raw powers. Rediscover the old control I used to have. Wild power is only useful in stories.
Still working on deciding on her. That is why I went down the rabbit hole to begin with. Makes things change, no matter what people say. I would like to say it wouldn't make a difference to me, but I am not curious. I miss it. One night and then it would be gone again. I don't know if I can do that or not. Honesty with this is hard. I love him. I don't know what it all means. Love hurts sometimes.
Ran enough power last night to produce static charge in my hair. My oiled skin went dry. Probably a good sign. He charged me first. Maybe that is part of what I miss. I pulled the power out, listened to the sound of neighborhood dogs going nuts. Storm came in, could have been tapping that. All of us tapping the same rush, makes things a bit odd. Still it was a rush. It hurt. I was worth it. Still need to tap the more raw powers. Rediscover the old control I used to have. Wild power is only useful in stories.
Still working on deciding on her. That is why I went down the rabbit hole to begin with. Makes things change, no matter what people say. I would like to say it wouldn't make a difference to me, but I am not curious. I miss it. One night and then it would be gone again. I don't know if I can do that or not. Honesty with this is hard. I love him. I don't know what it all means. Love hurts sometimes.