Day one - done
So I survived the first Easter Holiday - Sunday.
I expected it to turn out a drag but it was ok. It was just breaking my heart I could not see my Baby and the kids.
Time runs fast. Just a few years back the holidays as Christmas and Easter had been different - so much more people that since then are gone or too old to really enjoy it. I miss those times.
I also miss my mates that all seem to be busy for the holidays. It is maybe because I was not really spending much time with them lately. I was not really a god and caring mate like I should.
Though I was looking forward and at first I did not know how to handle the situation that I missed my Lady and The Wild Bunch so much. I guess I would have paid a fortune to be with her today and tomorrow. I hope I can maybe make it there to see them next or the weekend after that.
I should not look back because things will never be the way they had been. So the holidays will never been the way - the kind of routine they had become over the last decades. But looking at the present - I am a little sad. There is a little pain in my heart - I guess for many reasons - and it should not be there. But actually I can not help it.
Looking at the present I am not sure if I did right or if I should have tried harder to be with who I want to here and now. I should have put more afford in planning to spend time with my Dear Ones.
So we had past and present - there is the future. And that looks bright because I feel a lot of good things coming at me and for like the first time in my life I am not too afraid to accept them. So bring them on! :o)
And for the present…..it is still running and I am looking forward to - well to something I keep in my heart :o)
I hope you guys had a nice holiday so far if you celebrate this. Thanks for reading.
I expected it to turn out a drag but it was ok. It was just breaking my heart I could not see my Baby and the kids.
Time runs fast. Just a few years back the holidays as Christmas and Easter had been different - so much more people that since then are gone or too old to really enjoy it. I miss those times.
I also miss my mates that all seem to be busy for the holidays. It is maybe because I was not really spending much time with them lately. I was not really a god and caring mate like I should.
Though I was looking forward and at first I did not know how to handle the situation that I missed my Lady and The Wild Bunch so much. I guess I would have paid a fortune to be with her today and tomorrow. I hope I can maybe make it there to see them next or the weekend after that.
I should not look back because things will never be the way they had been. So the holidays will never been the way - the kind of routine they had become over the last decades. But looking at the present - I am a little sad. There is a little pain in my heart - I guess for many reasons - and it should not be there. But actually I can not help it.
Looking at the present I am not sure if I did right or if I should have tried harder to be with who I want to here and now. I should have put more afford in planning to spend time with my Dear Ones.
So we had past and present - there is the future. And that looks bright because I feel a lot of good things coming at me and for like the first time in my life I am not too afraid to accept them. So bring them on! :o)
And for the present…..it is still running and I am looking forward to - well to something I keep in my heart :o)
I hope you guys had a nice holiday so far if you celebrate this. Thanks for reading.