the essence of futile hopefulness

[nonnarcissistic]

"what i'm feeling is not what i'm saying here. and what is touching you is not what is within my heart sincere... i can't help but feel this way inside... it's something that's been embedded in my mind... it's nothing more than i've felt so many times before. the end result of situations i've endured. i swore it. i thought it. you think you've found that friend. that loving. it's just another empty hand to supply you with the security you need.

you can't stop the night. it stops you. it will catch up any way you go.

moving forward. forever backward."