muerte

[nonnarcissistic]

the fact of the matter is... i have never been afraid of death and dying. i have never been afraid of pain or being hurt... honestly, i have always sort of played with these things... taunting them and escaping without a scratch.

i am now realizing that i am totally fucking terrified of one thing.

i cried tonight uncontrollably for several hours when i could not fathom never being able to see my son again.

smd