Emotional Investment
If one more person tells me that it's better for me to just move on,
I'm going to scream.
Guess what world, I understand that it's better to move on, pick up the pieces of my heart,
try to get a return on my emotional investment in the stock market of her heart,
and try to meet the car payment.
But it ain't gonna happen like that.
Assuming that my personality is innate and not learned, and it is relatively constant,
(and based off of personal experience)
I'm going to continue to be emotionally invested in this girl for at least nine years,
without any feelings returned or even any logical reason why i should still feel the way i do.
Then, perhaps, there could be some sort of catalyst at the plus or minus two years mark from the nine years,
(that would be around the 7 or 11 year mark)
and i will be able to successfully work through my feelings. At that point, all of the pent up frustration and
emotional baggage/investment will be paid out, and i will be alternately angry and depressed.
then, like the metaphorical phoenix, i will arise a new man, able to begin the process again.
What should you concerned citizens and friends do during this time?
Live life like we normally would, maybe try a little extra hard to make me smile (it'll probably take a bit more work)
and for God's sake, DO NOT TELL ME TO MOVE ON! I am, as we speak, moving on.
Like the tectonic plates, it may not seem like I am moving quickly, but there I am moving a lot of stuff. (as in i have a lot of emotional investment to recover)
As a side note, isn't it good that I don't move on easily, and that I stay true in my heart towards the people that i decide to emotionally invest in? Isn't that a plus? Having a stable emotional status quo? Seems like it sure beats the hell out of being finicky and changing my feelings more often than i change my shirt? Isn't it good that I don't blow hot and cold?
Well this is the side affect of that. Not being able to turn things off like a switch because they weren't turned on like a switch.
That is all.
I'm going to scream.
Guess what world, I understand that it's better to move on, pick up the pieces of my heart,
try to get a return on my emotional investment in the stock market of her heart,
and try to meet the car payment.
But it ain't gonna happen like that.
Assuming that my personality is innate and not learned, and it is relatively constant,
(and based off of personal experience)
I'm going to continue to be emotionally invested in this girl for at least nine years,
without any feelings returned or even any logical reason why i should still feel the way i do.
Then, perhaps, there could be some sort of catalyst at the plus or minus two years mark from the nine years,
(that would be around the 7 or 11 year mark)
and i will be able to successfully work through my feelings. At that point, all of the pent up frustration and
emotional baggage/investment will be paid out, and i will be alternately angry and depressed.
then, like the metaphorical phoenix, i will arise a new man, able to begin the process again.
What should you concerned citizens and friends do during this time?
Live life like we normally would, maybe try a little extra hard to make me smile (it'll probably take a bit more work)
and for God's sake, DO NOT TELL ME TO MOVE ON! I am, as we speak, moving on.
Like the tectonic plates, it may not seem like I am moving quickly, but there I am moving a lot of stuff. (as in i have a lot of emotional investment to recover)
As a side note, isn't it good that I don't move on easily, and that I stay true in my heart towards the people that i decide to emotionally invest in? Isn't that a plus? Having a stable emotional status quo? Seems like it sure beats the hell out of being finicky and changing my feelings more often than i change my shirt? Isn't it good that I don't blow hot and cold?
Well this is the side affect of that. Not being able to turn things off like a switch because they weren't turned on like a switch.
That is all.