powder makes me remember my dreams....
so all through the night i kept waking up...all morning too. and i was having this dream. it might have been a little different everytime i went back to sleep, but for the most part it was all about michelle. it sucked. i couldn't get away from her. i was driving up and down the road...i think we went to the beach. anywho. then michelle, destiny and i were staying in a small room. yeah. kinda like a dorm room. but then again...it was bigger than a dorm room.
(i just ordered mexican food, i love to have a mexican place right near my house!)
anyway. i was standing at a sliding glass door...being all depressed and lonely and shit. michelle being the bitch that she is brought a girl back. so i left. then sometime later she decides to bring a couple people back. they were "canadian," if you know what i mean? she starts making out w/ this girl. so you know me and my jealous rages. i proceed to beat the shit out of everyone she brought back there. however, i just couldn't punch them hard. at all. i felt like my arms were spagetti. i woke up. oh...all this was over the entire night. anywho. i went back to sleep and destiny and michelle were in the bathtub...together. weird. and i walk in. and seriously only look at michelle and destiny goes "what are you doing? get out!" and because i'm obviously a bitch in my dreams i say, "listen, you're a toothpick no (count 'em) no boobs and michelle's fat...do you honestly think either one of you is hot?" and fucking turned and walked out the door. air high-five guys! so then i wake up. i go back to sleep and find my bed in the closet. so then i decide it's just time to stay away when i wake up. but see...this isn't even half of my dream. i don't normally remember any of my dreams...but i remember bits and pieces of this one. i made me realize that i STILL have deep seeded hate and anger towards everyone involved with michelle. like destiny and james.
but i realized i still hated james when i saw him at the castle. i wanted to rip his fucking little faggot head off. why? because he slept (tried to sleep with) michelle TWICE! which ever one it was i don't know...i'm not sure he could keep it up or not. i don't think i'd be able to. anywho. i hope that michelle reads this because this is something james probably lied to her about. see...i've heard from the grapevine that michelle hates condoms. well...i know for a fact that condoms have broken with james...or he just hasn't used them. and let me point something out...like michelle, james has been with a lot of people. so michelle? do you want to catch an STD? do you want to give someone else one? this is why i don't want to have sex. it's fucking retarded! there are so many goddamn STD's around and it's like go fish...you never know what you're going to get. i don't know about anyone else but it scares the shit out of me and isaac and to find out that the people we fell in love with were whores...damn. they were literally everything we didn't want, and they lied to us and told us that they were. so if we hate them for that...and for tearing us apart...then i think they completely deserve it and we have the right to feel however we goddamn please.