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i'm still in love w/ michelle. period. i will be for a long time. it's just that we weren't in a healthy relationship. the love is there...but a foundation that a healthy relationship can be built on isn't. maybe one day we can work it out, but maybe one day we'll both realize we've moved on. everyone tells me not to think like that. to just move on. can't. sorry. not right now. no one else knows what we've been thru. therefore, no one can judge our relationship and know what's best for us. i love that girl. when i look at her...i see the woman i want to propose to. i see the woman i want to start a family with. and buy my first house with. i don't see the woman who'll be known as my ex for the rest of my life. frankly, it's b/c i know how we feel about each other and i know how intense and true our love is. i don't want to be with michelle right now. i can't. i need time to myself. i need time to figure out what it is i really want...which might not be michelle. but honestly, i feel something for michelle that i've never felt before. something that i'm afraid i'll never feel again. if it's meant to be...it'll be. plain and simple. i love her...and yes, i do want to be with her. but no, not right now. i need to figure out what went wrong and maybe find out how to fix it. we've both molded ourselves into people that we really aren't...just to make the other happy. and b/c of that...neither one of us is happy. i fell in love with michelle before i really knew who she was...but, i love her including all of her flaws, not despite them. we have to stop hurting each other...one way or another. that's all it boils down to. if we can figure out a way to build a healthy relationship we will...but if we can't...then we won't. i do love her tho...and i always will. the more i'm away from her...the more i love her. but, that also means that i'll do anything to make her happy, which includes leaving her alone.
'white flag'
[dido]
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it,
where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were but
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble,
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense but
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there, will be there still
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
And you will think, that I've moved on....
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
'white flag'
[dido]
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it,
where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were but
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble,
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense but
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there, will be there still
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
And you will think, that I've moved on....
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be