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i doubt anyone uses this anymore but i might as well update it. Life has been weird lately, coming onto this and looking at pictures of me from when i was drunk/high at 14 or so is depressing. I wish someone told me how stupid i was. Being sober is really hard right now and i have over 6 months but it is so painful at times. My boyfriend and i have been fighting and its upsetting since he means so much to me. i cant believe i am writing this right now... i am sure i will regret it. I feel very alone when it comes down to it. I wish my old friends didnt hate me for leaving (i guess only one does. I wish she could understand that i needed to do this and though the way i did it might of not been the best, but its not about her. i want to create a new livejournal, its time to retire this one in my book. I have no idea how to work this shit anymore so i dont know how i am going to do that.