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Well good thing no one ever reads these. Not like it wouldnt be nice to have a little input on some things every now and then but I guess it really shows who cares. I dont know whats wrong with me. I'm being an ass to Brittany and I dont know why, I think its just cause im scared about what is going to happen once I go off to school you know, preparing myself for disappointment know before it actually happens since that is all im ever use to. I love her so much and maybe sub consiously or something i think it would be easier to lose her by driving her away myself than for her to actually leave me or something. I feel terrible, she deserves a lot better than me, I'm just a stupid asshole. Fuck