a comment on happily ever after: ha
this color is meant to embody the feeling of warmth.
lol, guess what? tom and i have decided to be official. ^-^ since yesterday.
good news, right? but school starts the 29th... ten days. and then what? we give up? its over? its almost certain. which sucks. i dont want to go through the hurt again, the denile, and the emptiness. my friends told me i shouldn't have gotten involved again. but i was so unhappy without him. sad and stupid, but true. for now, i can call him mine. all mine... for the first time. he told me it isn't fair to try with all our might to devote whatever spare time we're going to have to seeing each other. true. but its also not fair not to see each other at all. it wont solve anything. it didn't last time, it made things worse. i'm not completely sure what we're going to do, how things will be. but i have rebecca and nicool and jess and desi and amanda and my flutes and a whole bunch of other distractions... soon to include key club. *crosses fingers* btw, it makes sense that we'll be district 16... we are a district 16 marching band, after all. and in drama we're district 16 too. lol.
when maxwell and i went to the movies he talked about the pointlessness of high school relationships. he said that since you aren't going to marry that person there is no point. but it isn't true. high school relationships teach you a lot about life and caring. this coming from the official "heartless bitch" of anchor bay. and true, its hard... but its very much worth the pain.
i'm very happy now. the future is of little consequence. if i spend my time fearing whats to come i'll miss the little pleasures of the present. right? right. trust me. i learned from experience.
i know i don't talk like this much. you'd think i was blindly happy for all i've said. but i'm not. yes, tom and i are official... for now. i know it will end... pretty soon, too. i'm willing to accept that.
lol, guess what? tom and i have decided to be official. ^-^ since yesterday.
good news, right? but school starts the 29th... ten days. and then what? we give up? its over? its almost certain. which sucks. i dont want to go through the hurt again, the denile, and the emptiness. my friends told me i shouldn't have gotten involved again. but i was so unhappy without him. sad and stupid, but true. for now, i can call him mine. all mine... for the first time. he told me it isn't fair to try with all our might to devote whatever spare time we're going to have to seeing each other. true. but its also not fair not to see each other at all. it wont solve anything. it didn't last time, it made things worse. i'm not completely sure what we're going to do, how things will be. but i have rebecca and nicool and jess and desi and amanda and my flutes and a whole bunch of other distractions... soon to include key club. *crosses fingers* btw, it makes sense that we'll be district 16... we are a district 16 marching band, after all. and in drama we're district 16 too. lol.
when maxwell and i went to the movies he talked about the pointlessness of high school relationships. he said that since you aren't going to marry that person there is no point. but it isn't true. high school relationships teach you a lot about life and caring. this coming from the official "heartless bitch" of anchor bay. and true, its hard... but its very much worth the pain.
i'm very happy now. the future is of little consequence. if i spend my time fearing whats to come i'll miss the little pleasures of the present. right? right. trust me. i learned from experience.
i know i don't talk like this much. you'd think i was blindly happy for all i've said. but i'm not. yes, tom and i are official... for now. i know it will end... pretty soon, too. i'm willing to accept that.