FATES: Part II
So those crazy sisters watched me today again. hiding in my room, reading a book about wizards in new york to keep my mind off how miserable i felt, and occasionally emerging to do things like look at aunt mitzies new puppy or find some ice cream, or unload the groceries and periodically wondering if i should have paul over or go out with max but ultimately coming to the conclusion that nobody wants to be around me when i'm sulky, so why bother. and you know what they said? "pathetic" "time's running so short" "what a waste, what a waste" "do you think that book could ever be a movie?" "what?"
haha. just kidding. trying to add a bit of humor so i don't feel quite as dismal. fat chance.
in the princess bride, which i watched at like 1030 last night a yosef's house, wesley says "this is true love, do you think this happens everyday?" and i thought to myself, 'no, no it doesn't. in fact, i'm not sure i've ever seen it anywhere but this movie. so no.'
my aunt took the design for the flute tshirt. the one jess and i worked out on paint. i hope nobody's mad at me. but at the same time, i don't really care if they are. mean section leader, aren't i? yeah. pretty much. just like how i told them they couldn't have nachos until they played it right. but guess what? they suddenly played it right.
sorry. i'm in an awful mood. it just sorta bothers me ... today, that is. it bothered me. it's been a long time since i've wanted to disappear this badly. just to be completely gone from the life i know. i haven't had the will to clean my room in days. and i don't want to go to work, but i dont' want to stay home. i'll work tomorrow tho. and i'll like it, i always do. shallow people are so uplifting.
yeah, times running out. i can't do this much longer, it's making me feel so unhappy. and i had the stupidity to think this time would somehow be different....