AJ = Army Jerk
AJ stands for Army Jerk. That's just one of the things that I've learnt this week.
1: I either want the real thing, or nothing at all.
That Melbourne guy? History. Managed to get a chance to talk to him today. I was quite excited at first to hear from him, as I was hoping we could plan a weekend together. He asked me if I wanted to do phone sex. I attempted to explain that phone sex doesn't do it for me because I can't get into it mentally. I thought at first that he understood this, but then he said that he hoped I could "find what I was looking for [elsewhere]". So that little thing is over, gone, ended.
At first I was a little annoyed, then sad, but ten minutes later I was happy again. I'm glad I found out how much of a jerk he was before I wasted my precious lecture recess on him. Because I'm not interested in anyone who doesn't want to take it real-time.
2: I must not take everything at face value
A few days ago a new girl, littlelady, came to one of the chat rooms that I regularly visit. I was quite concerned for her, as she seemed very naive and innocent. I was not the only one who felt that way. We did our best to teach her and support her. We also did our best to protect her from another user on the chat room, skid, who little lady said had been stalking her. It became quite a serious issue, and many of us were genuinely worried about little lady's safety.
So what a shock it was when we discovered that littlelady and skid were the same person. I don't know what kind of person you have to be to "stalk" yourself online, but it isn't much of a person. I was quite upset when I was informed of this (I'd missed the showdown by about 2 hours - drat it). I had gone out of my way to befriend "littlelady", and put up with quite a lot of abuse from "skid".
I had only just met "littlelady" - and I'm disgusted with myself for honestly believing she was a nice person. Littlelady/skid is just a sick, sick indiviudal. Perhaps I take what people say at face value because I am honest. What I expect of myself, I expect of other people, and I think this may be why I am often let down.
3: It is not neccesary to say everything that is on your mind
I was quite proud of myself yesterday. I stayed out of a fight that wasn't mine. I held my tongue. I was tempted to ask if I should leave - however everyone handled things honestly, and we were soon watching TV and drinking together like nothing had happened. I am quite impressed that the person who threw the tantrum (for the right reasons) did not apologise to me. No "Sorry you had to see that". This person is obviously quite comfortable handling her emotions, and I respect her for that.
In other news, I should have my phone bill paid off soon. I am going to the Cowboys game tomorrow night with Jarrod, who I now think is my boyfriend (didn't intend to end up that way... still not sure why we did... I let him fuck me twice...). I was going to break it off, but I didn't have the heart. And besides, I'm kinda enjoying it now. As long as he stops hogging my bed, we will be fine.
Note to self #1: Keep a spare set of clothes at george roberts hall and uni hall... I have a feeling that due to visiting Kate and her friends, and Jarrod and his friends, I will be spending at least one night a week there. And it is good to put on clean clothes in the morning.
Note to self #2: Keep a spare toothbrush with clothes mentioned above.
Note to self #3: Keep a spare $12 for a four-pack of Southern Comfort and Coke. Nobody else drinks it, so it's safe.
I have started writing stories again too.
1: I either want the real thing, or nothing at all.
That Melbourne guy? History. Managed to get a chance to talk to him today. I was quite excited at first to hear from him, as I was hoping we could plan a weekend together. He asked me if I wanted to do phone sex. I attempted to explain that phone sex doesn't do it for me because I can't get into it mentally. I thought at first that he understood this, but then he said that he hoped I could "find what I was looking for [elsewhere]". So that little thing is over, gone, ended.
At first I was a little annoyed, then sad, but ten minutes later I was happy again. I'm glad I found out how much of a jerk he was before I wasted my precious lecture recess on him. Because I'm not interested in anyone who doesn't want to take it real-time.
2: I must not take everything at face value
A few days ago a new girl, littlelady, came to one of the chat rooms that I regularly visit. I was quite concerned for her, as she seemed very naive and innocent. I was not the only one who felt that way. We did our best to teach her and support her. We also did our best to protect her from another user on the chat room, skid, who little lady said had been stalking her. It became quite a serious issue, and many of us were genuinely worried about little lady's safety.
So what a shock it was when we discovered that littlelady and skid were the same person. I don't know what kind of person you have to be to "stalk" yourself online, but it isn't much of a person. I was quite upset when I was informed of this (I'd missed the showdown by about 2 hours - drat it). I had gone out of my way to befriend "littlelady", and put up with quite a lot of abuse from "skid".
I had only just met "littlelady" - and I'm disgusted with myself for honestly believing she was a nice person. Littlelady/skid is just a sick, sick indiviudal. Perhaps I take what people say at face value because I am honest. What I expect of myself, I expect of other people, and I think this may be why I am often let down.
3: It is not neccesary to say everything that is on your mind
I was quite proud of myself yesterday. I stayed out of a fight that wasn't mine. I held my tongue. I was tempted to ask if I should leave - however everyone handled things honestly, and we were soon watching TV and drinking together like nothing had happened. I am quite impressed that the person who threw the tantrum (for the right reasons) did not apologise to me. No "Sorry you had to see that". This person is obviously quite comfortable handling her emotions, and I respect her for that.
In other news, I should have my phone bill paid off soon. I am going to the Cowboys game tomorrow night with Jarrod, who I now think is my boyfriend (didn't intend to end up that way... still not sure why we did... I let him fuck me twice...). I was going to break it off, but I didn't have the heart. And besides, I'm kinda enjoying it now. As long as he stops hogging my bed, we will be fine.
Note to self #1: Keep a spare set of clothes at george roberts hall and uni hall... I have a feeling that due to visiting Kate and her friends, and Jarrod and his friends, I will be spending at least one night a week there. And it is good to put on clean clothes in the morning.
Note to self #2: Keep a spare toothbrush with clothes mentioned above.
Note to self #3: Keep a spare $12 for a four-pack of Southern Comfort and Coke. Nobody else drinks it, so it's safe.
I have started writing stories again too.