this wont be long.
I just needed to put this thought somewhere other than my goddamn head. I hate that this is what it all came to. I hate that I never knew one word of truth other than what is was shown through screen captures and messages of others. I hate that ill never stand in front of everyone I hold close and make a lifetime comittment to the person I love. I hate that the person I love, never really loved me at all. And most of all, I hate that I feel insecure because the person I love couldn't seem to keep it in her pants or keep the texts and pictures to herself while sharing a bed with me every night. I've bit my tongue for over a month, I'm sorry, I had to write it out before I became so irrational I couldn't function. Its just a neverending cycle of despair and misery. I wish I had the strength to walk away from this existence.