listening to mika and loving him
lizzie i hope ur not in the middle of all that flooding, that probably would put a damper on things. . not pun intended. i'm not in a good mood.
its totally stupid, me trying to do stuff, because it seems that no matter how much i try to move forward in my life, the powers that be do everything possible to hold me back.
saving? add in here my new expenses:
speeding fine
have to buy a new wig for the states so i can "fit in"
found a hole in my soft shoes, the sole is ripping apart have to get that fixed
gotta go to the physio tomorro to find out if ive done real damage to my legs
uni books and stuff
leg tan / deep heat
plus anything else that decides to pop up - just to underline this problem - the wig costs me $170. as will the speeding fine.
that stuff i can handle, cos that is bullshit that happens all the time.
what i cant handle, and what is currently ripping me apart, is that the workshop that was supposed to be oh so good for me, might have taken away any chance of me dancing this weekend.
and for the first time in my life, this is absolutely killing me. there has always been a part of me that thinks score i'll get out of dancing.
but i cant even think about this without crying.
i want to dance. i'm supposed to dance. and i might not be able to.
who in the universe has this sick sense of humour? i HATE THEM.
but for now, i'm going to order my black/brown senior aoife wig, go into the city and put my soft shoes in to be restitched, and go to the physio tomorro morning.
and i will do it in the hope that there is nothing really wrong.
its totally stupid, me trying to do stuff, because it seems that no matter how much i try to move forward in my life, the powers that be do everything possible to hold me back.
saving? add in here my new expenses:
speeding fine
have to buy a new wig for the states so i can "fit in"
found a hole in my soft shoes, the sole is ripping apart have to get that fixed
gotta go to the physio tomorro to find out if ive done real damage to my legs
uni books and stuff
leg tan / deep heat
plus anything else that decides to pop up - just to underline this problem - the wig costs me $170. as will the speeding fine.
that stuff i can handle, cos that is bullshit that happens all the time.
what i cant handle, and what is currently ripping me apart, is that the workshop that was supposed to be oh so good for me, might have taken away any chance of me dancing this weekend.
and for the first time in my life, this is absolutely killing me. there has always been a part of me that thinks score i'll get out of dancing.
but i cant even think about this without crying.
i want to dance. i'm supposed to dance. and i might not be able to.
who in the universe has this sick sense of humour? i HATE THEM.
but for now, i'm going to order my black/brown senior aoife wig, go into the city and put my soft shoes in to be restitched, and go to the physio tomorro morning.
and i will do it in the hope that there is nothing really wrong.