Subpar attempt at updating...
...which, considering the circumstances of not having television, internet, radio, or books in my house yet, is rather disappointing. you'd think a girl with that much time to think on her hands would be able to muster a sensational post. but alas, as sung best by my idol, somehow i keep going on just settling for this mediocrity.
oh man, have i had a week. i didn't get the gig at that new theatre, but i live my art daily, as now it has become "being okay" for everyone to see. miss dolly would say i am acting from the outside in (the biggest no-no), but my response to her would be, "if i allowed myself to act from the inside out, i would be consumed by overwhelming emotion and lose control of my focus and confidence."
i know things will work out as they should in all aspects. that is my solace, i suppose. i had a conversation about God and destiny last night - it will surely be on my mind all day. there is utter disarray in my consciousness, and my inability to bring this salmagundi verbally into fruition in an organized manner causes my frustration and angst to increase exponentially.
all that i don't know paralyzes me.
thank you for understanding, idina.
oh man, have i had a week. i didn't get the gig at that new theatre, but i live my art daily, as now it has become "being okay" for everyone to see. miss dolly would say i am acting from the outside in (the biggest no-no), but my response to her would be, "if i allowed myself to act from the inside out, i would be consumed by overwhelming emotion and lose control of my focus and confidence."
i know things will work out as they should in all aspects. that is my solace, i suppose. i had a conversation about God and destiny last night - it will surely be on my mind all day. there is utter disarray in my consciousness, and my inability to bring this salmagundi verbally into fruition in an organized manner causes my frustration and angst to increase exponentially.
all that i don't know paralyzes me.
thank you for understanding, idina.