Strangers, First & Foremost
And this one goes out to my perfect stranger,
Whom I know better than I've ever known myself
And whom I love even better still...
This one's for you
I see you
Eyes blazing
Glowing like blue flames immersed in white and caged in by pale-skinned lids
That's just what your gaze is
A fire searing brands into my sub and conscious minds
Leaving these scars that say your name
Priceless.
Painless?
Not even in the least
Your eyes alone have blown a hole inside of me.
Who are you waking up to now dear stranger?
Those perfect eyes of yours, what has been the first thing they take in
Soon as they start to arise with you and the sun?
How far along into the day must you get before the first thought of me blows through you?
I've never spent a night dreaming without you
Just to turn to shattered glass when I awake and you're not there.
And yet I stand clock-still and keep on waiting
If something were supposed to be different here, it would be.
Cant you see that, Baby?
If I should be over you,
Then I could let go of you
And you wouldn't really break into my head without a warning
Sometimes I wish these memories of you would lose their way
Forget how to find the forefront of my mind
Negate to follow the yellow brick road
Pray that swift winds devour their breadcrumb path home
Cause you seem fine with staying away for awhile
Do you remember your words?
Cause I do
Do you remember all the promises?
Cause I do
Do you remember all the miracles?
Cause I do
Do you remember we were magical?
Cause I do
Do you remember all the vows you made?
I do
You gave me hope and kisses
I siphoned my hope right through them
And when your unflawed pillow lips press firmly onto mine
I reach out my fingertips to catch the happiness as it's carried down to me on silver clouds
But clocks don't tick forever
And mine is soon bound to force itself out of time
With you ever-glowing in the back of my mind
Because it seems you never noticed I've been waiting
And what you said to me yesterday
Took all the history we had away
Throwing both it and me down to the dogs.
Cause what have I been waiting for
If you dont see me anymore ?!
And where/what now is my point of being
When you have ceased to grant me meaning?
And everything that ever truly meant a thing to me has faded grey
I would go if I knew where to find "away"
I cannot escape you
Though I serve as your escape route
And fuck it, I'm stuck
I've no choice but to stick it out and wait.
And re-convince myself that you'll remember me someday
Cause you knew me once
Better than anyone
And you'll have more of me than any stranger will again