A semi-relief off my shoulders
I hate making those "make-up" phone calls. I find myself initiating these calls a lot.
I finally summed up the courage to call my mother. It was in the morning, but that's okay because I waited til around LATE morning. I haven't been sleeping right.
I had to play this game of constantly repeating "you're right, mom" as she told me that I was irresponsible and selfish. Just because I left a dog alone for five hours. This dog had surgery on his tail and was perfectly fine when I left. BUT before I left her house, the dog seemed perfectly fine and normal. He was wagging his tail and panting as usual. So I thought I did nothing wrong.
Anyway, I already explained that stuff. Even though it was sooooooooooooo painful for my non-existing pride now (it vanished when I spoke to her) it's worth it if I can sleep peacefully at night... or at least a bit better than I have. I want to form a sleep schedule AT LAST.
I did cry a little on the phone... but I poured my heart out to her. Surprisingly, she didn't come back with some smartass comment or something to put me even more down with. In fact, she was civil for once. The rest of the phone call? Not so civil... but it was not as bad as other situations in the past years.
I'm relieved. I'm slightly happier. As it sinks in, hopefully I will feel even better knowing that everything will be OK.
Stay Cool~
Sheryl
I finally summed up the courage to call my mother. It was in the morning, but that's okay because I waited til around LATE morning. I haven't been sleeping right.
I had to play this game of constantly repeating "you're right, mom" as she told me that I was irresponsible and selfish. Just because I left a dog alone for five hours. This dog had surgery on his tail and was perfectly fine when I left. BUT before I left her house, the dog seemed perfectly fine and normal. He was wagging his tail and panting as usual. So I thought I did nothing wrong.
Anyway, I already explained that stuff. Even though it was sooooooooooooo painful for my non-existing pride now (it vanished when I spoke to her) it's worth it if I can sleep peacefully at night... or at least a bit better than I have. I want to form a sleep schedule AT LAST.
I did cry a little on the phone... but I poured my heart out to her. Surprisingly, she didn't come back with some smartass comment or something to put me even more down with. In fact, she was civil for once. The rest of the phone call? Not so civil... but it was not as bad as other situations in the past years.
I'm relieved. I'm slightly happier. As it sinks in, hopefully I will feel even better knowing that everything will be OK.
Stay Cool~
Sheryl