I try not to be an idiot...
Finals are OVER!
I'm dead tired and am getting ready to nap before heading to work. I don't expect to get much sleep until probably Sunday night. The Tumbleweed Christmas after-party which was held at the apartment (still don't know how that happened) was kind of crazy. I stained the carpet again, but found a really awesome stain remover.
I promised Erica that I wouldn't get sick- that I would be more careful... I don't make a promise unless I mean it, and I feel horrible that I broke this one. She's convinced that I'm a hopeless case, and it's starting to cause problems between us. That can't happen. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy being drunk, but it's not worth Erica being upset with me. No more shots at parties- that killed me last time. I had a pleasant buzz going on until someone pulled out the rum. I don't really care for shots, anyway- anything that has enough alcohol to be taken in such small quantities has to taste like crap.
I tell myself "If I get drunk, people might think I'm fun," since when I'm sober I always feel like I'm boring and uninteresting.
But some of the things that Erica said really hurt- and it's my fault. If she starts thinking that I'm insincere when I tell her that next time will be different then I have to make some changes.
Getting drunk isn't worth losing a friendship.
That's what's on my mind right now, and I'm going to take a nap.
I'm dead tired and am getting ready to nap before heading to work. I don't expect to get much sleep until probably Sunday night. The Tumbleweed Christmas after-party which was held at the apartment (still don't know how that happened) was kind of crazy. I stained the carpet again, but found a really awesome stain remover.
I promised Erica that I wouldn't get sick- that I would be more careful... I don't make a promise unless I mean it, and I feel horrible that I broke this one. She's convinced that I'm a hopeless case, and it's starting to cause problems between us. That can't happen. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy being drunk, but it's not worth Erica being upset with me. No more shots at parties- that killed me last time. I had a pleasant buzz going on until someone pulled out the rum. I don't really care for shots, anyway- anything that has enough alcohol to be taken in such small quantities has to taste like crap.
I tell myself "If I get drunk, people might think I'm fun," since when I'm sober I always feel like I'm boring and uninteresting.
But some of the things that Erica said really hurt- and it's my fault. If she starts thinking that I'm insincere when I tell her that next time will be different then I have to make some changes.
Getting drunk isn't worth losing a friendship.
That's what's on my mind right now, and I'm going to take a nap.