And I'm gonna miss everybody..and I'm gonna miss everybody.
I hate school. It would just be easier to die. I have this fear that I will lose my scholarship. At night I get anxiety attacks and I can't sleep. I keep tossing and turning and breathing. I keep thinking why am I sleeping I should be doing this or finish all of this stay ahead because later on it will be ten times worse and harder. I heard the middle of the semester is when all the teachers try to catch up and pile everything on you. Now I know its not impossible, but the fear from losing my scholarship makes me have even more negatives feelings than usual. If I think I am, then I will. But its also unrealistic to say if I just say I can then I will.
I finally met someone today that I actually felt like I could be real friends with. He's smart and loves the same music as I do. He said we could go to some concerts together. Edgefest SOMETHING CORPORATE! Maybe having at least one real friend will take away my fear. Its only the third day and Im already complaining, but thats me so FUCK YOU.
I finally met someone today that I actually felt like I could be real friends with. He's smart and loves the same music as I do. He said we could go to some concerts together. Edgefest SOMETHING CORPORATE! Maybe having at least one real friend will take away my fear. Its only the third day and Im already complaining, but thats me so FUCK YOU.